so i showed you who was really in control
i need to cut off all of the people i use to pass my time. mostly, i feel overwhelmed. trying to keep everyone separate and unknowing of everyone else. it's shitty, and i am not a character on sex and the city.
why have i surrounded myself with people that would do anything to keep me around? this is too manipulative, even for me. i don't care about any of them, really. and i have a new one every week. it keeps things exciting for a little, and then we sleep together, and then the excitement is gone. i just keep racking them up like human trophies i am too nostalgic to throw away.
meanwhile, the one person that perpetually breathes that excitement is the only person i will ever care about. but he's too busy waiting for me to grow up.
i want something long lasting. i want to be one of those people who are happy, who are developing relationships that will eventually lead to forever.
maybe i'll just get a dog.
why have i surrounded myself with people that would do anything to keep me around? this is too manipulative, even for me. i don't care about any of them, really. and i have a new one every week. it keeps things exciting for a little, and then we sleep together, and then the excitement is gone. i just keep racking them up like human trophies i am too nostalgic to throw away.
meanwhile, the one person that perpetually breathes that excitement is the only person i will ever care about. but he's too busy waiting for me to grow up.
i want something long lasting. i want to be one of those people who are happy, who are developing relationships that will eventually lead to forever.
maybe i'll just get a dog.