2 things i need to work on and 1 thing that i notice
1) I get angry SOOO easily, seriously the terrets thing is so fitting because I used to be a really patient person, but at the moment I am just disgusted with how everything makes me mad and im cynical and everything else involved with that type of attitude, spring break couldn't be more needed. I am in dire need of standing on a tractor in the rain and screaming like in garden state..
2) maybe it has something to do with me always being angry, but i swear like nobody's business. Not like thrown into sentences to give emphasis so much as i get mad and its like a stream of obscenities comes out of nowhere and its scary. It's come to the point where the people around me notice it because its obviously abrasive and it bothers them. I know it's affected them so that they do it too sometimes and I feel really shitty about that cuz i don't know how i got into such a bad habit but at school all you hear is that, it's like embedded in my subconscious...some catholic school...I wanna apologize to the people around me for doing it so much because i know there are some of you who do it now and used to not do it and i probably have some hand in that...
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3) im a watcher i.e. i love watching ppl, even just strangers (no its not creepy)...and so when i watch ppl at school i see how they try sooooooooooo hard. The problem is i look at my friends and i wonder if there's something about me that they'd think they have to try hard to be a certain way with me...like i said in my comment to debbie, i dont want to hang out w/ a clone of myself, thats lame, how bout someone original?
2) maybe it has something to do with me always being angry, but i swear like nobody's business. Not like thrown into sentences to give emphasis so much as i get mad and its like a stream of obscenities comes out of nowhere and its scary. It's come to the point where the people around me notice it because its obviously abrasive and it bothers them. I know it's affected them so that they do it too sometimes and I feel really shitty about that cuz i don't know how i got into such a bad habit but at school all you hear is that, it's like embedded in my subconscious...some catholic school...I wanna apologize to the people around me for doing it so much because i know there are some of you who do it now and used to not do it and i probably have some hand in that...
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3) im a watcher i.e. i love watching ppl, even just strangers (no its not creepy)...and so when i watch ppl at school i see how they try sooooooooooo hard. The problem is i look at my friends and i wonder if there's something about me that they'd think they have to try hard to be a certain way with me...like i said in my comment to debbie, i dont want to hang out w/ a clone of myself, thats lame, how bout someone original?