Yay Insomnia
What else is there to go at 1:16 am when you can't sleep and have to be up in 4 hours for rugby conditioning? Yes, thats right make random bitchy blogs that 2 people read!!! Sadly enough it beats lying in bed trying all possible sleeping positions and clothing options and then hoping that one will induce immediate sleep. So instead random ramblings!
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Saturday was my first night at work. Everyone seems nice so it should be a fun environment. I only slightly made a complete ass of myself, dumping French dressing all over the salad bar in the first 5 minutes I was on the clock then later that night tripping down the basement stairs spilling about 50 croutons everywhere. Tonight was better in the "Louise not being a dumbass" department although it was a really slow night due to that small thing known as the Colts game.
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The Colts won which I guess is worth me not really making any money tonight...well atleast to some people it is, to me not really I mean its cool and everything but it just means that there will be even more drunken idiots around here on SuperBowl Sunday than there normally would have been. Eh I'll probably be working and not making any money then too!
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I MUST get in shape. However 6am on Mon and Thurs for Rugby conditioning is not exactly what I had in mind. They're combining 2 of my least favorite things and creating one of the ultimate tortures running + me + early morning = super bitch and total lack of productivity for the rest of the day.
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I feel totally out of place in just about every group I'm associated with. Don't get me wrong I have a lot of amazing friends and I'm not pulling the "poor me no one really loves me they're just being nice out of courtesy" bullshit thats not at all. and I'm not begging for a million comments from people telling me how much they love me. Not that that many people know I even have this LJ but thats beside the point. I'm involved in multiple things and when they all add up I really don't have enough time to be in the "in" group of any of them. I'm not in the "in" group of theatre essentially because I wasn't cast in ROAD. I'm not in the "in" group at rugby because 1. i'm not 21 and 2. I keep missing chunks of seasons due to injury and theatre. Work, well will change since I only just started. I Can't do the Vagina Monologues this year because of work, and the SOF I love them all dearly, but again I'm just not around enough and I'm not intelligent enough in the geeky stereotypically smart way. I HATE insomnia.
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Daisy and Alexander are dead, or atleast very close to it. Daisy is/was my cactus-type thing. I think I over watered her...and Alexander is a fern looking leafy thingy, some sort of dwarf palm according to his little plastic stick thingy. He was under watered. Bits of him keep turning brown and sort of drooping/falling out. I did well to keep them this long...especially since I forgot to take them to my parents over x-mas so they were left unattended for about 2/1/2 weeks. Opps. I'm better with pets and small children though. Not that i've ever been left in charge of either long enough to neglect them resulting in death. Oh dear that sounds really bad.
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I HAVE to go to Philosophy tomorrow. I've only been once this semester. Granted I missed 2 due to ACTF and there was no class Monday because of Martin Luther King Day, but still. 1 class in 2 weeks. Ouch. Its not like I'm really missed because there are a few hundred people but I would be pissed if I failed and had to take it over.
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Oh, my summer plans fell through. No England study abroad for me. The company my dad works for was bought out so money is all screwy, especially since some upper level peeps are getting indicted for something to do with fraud and stock options or not reporting taxes or something who knows. Oh and then theres the fact that my family gained the financial responsibility of another 16 yr old with absolutely no help from anyone. And then there was the emergency trip to the UK for my parents when my grandfather died. So financially things suck ass right now I guess. My mother didn't say it in those words exactly but I'm pretty good at reading between the lines. So i'll be here all summer working my ass off both at work and school. fun fun. That sounds horribly selfish, but if I want to make it as an actor/ into grad school I HAVE to have summer acting experience from other places. That can't happen when I'm broke and stuck in West Lafayette. My options aren't exactly varied here.
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The theatre season for next semester kicks ass. First is an all undergrad show thats yet to be determined. w00t for new grad actors that don't get cast in the first show of the season. Then its Marat/Sade (the real names really fucking long) then Trojan Women, and second semester is The Underpants, and Hair (the musical...my friends and I have been debating what the departments going to do with the fact that theres pretty much full nudity by the end of the show from pretty much the whole cast)
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This is a fucking huge post, but oh guess what? I'm still not tired! I have a feeling I'm not going to conditioning. I can't get through the day on 4 hours of sleep. Well I know I can i've done it before and on less but I really dont want to get into that habit of not sleeping quite yet. Its only the 3rd week of the semester. I want to save that for atleast the 4th week since I have to close at work a week from tomorrow, something I havent done since August and its with different people, jobs, and store. I haven't had caffeine in about 6/1/2 hours so thats not whats keeping me awake, and I don't have anything tomorrow I'm unprepared for or nervous about.
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Meh, I'm off to try sleeping on the floor of my bedroom maybe that'll work. Who knows.
*******
Saturday was my first night at work. Everyone seems nice so it should be a fun environment. I only slightly made a complete ass of myself, dumping French dressing all over the salad bar in the first 5 minutes I was on the clock then later that night tripping down the basement stairs spilling about 50 croutons everywhere. Tonight was better in the "Louise not being a dumbass" department although it was a really slow night due to that small thing known as the Colts game.
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The Colts won which I guess is worth me not really making any money tonight...well atleast to some people it is, to me not really I mean its cool and everything but it just means that there will be even more drunken idiots around here on SuperBowl Sunday than there normally would have been. Eh I'll probably be working and not making any money then too!
******
I MUST get in shape. However 6am on Mon and Thurs for Rugby conditioning is not exactly what I had in mind. They're combining 2 of my least favorite things and creating one of the ultimate tortures running + me + early morning = super bitch and total lack of productivity for the rest of the day.
*******
I feel totally out of place in just about every group I'm associated with. Don't get me wrong I have a lot of amazing friends and I'm not pulling the "poor me no one really loves me they're just being nice out of courtesy" bullshit thats not at all. and I'm not begging for a million comments from people telling me how much they love me. Not that that many people know I even have this LJ but thats beside the point. I'm involved in multiple things and when they all add up I really don't have enough time to be in the "in" group of any of them. I'm not in the "in" group of theatre essentially because I wasn't cast in ROAD. I'm not in the "in" group at rugby because 1. i'm not 21 and 2. I keep missing chunks of seasons due to injury and theatre. Work, well will change since I only just started. I Can't do the Vagina Monologues this year because of work, and the SOF I love them all dearly, but again I'm just not around enough and I'm not intelligent enough in the geeky stereotypically smart way. I HATE insomnia.
*****
Daisy and Alexander are dead, or atleast very close to it. Daisy is/was my cactus-type thing. I think I over watered her...and Alexander is a fern looking leafy thingy, some sort of dwarf palm according to his little plastic stick thingy. He was under watered. Bits of him keep turning brown and sort of drooping/falling out. I did well to keep them this long...especially since I forgot to take them to my parents over x-mas so they were left unattended for about 2/1/2 weeks. Opps. I'm better with pets and small children though. Not that i've ever been left in charge of either long enough to neglect them resulting in death. Oh dear that sounds really bad.
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I HAVE to go to Philosophy tomorrow. I've only been once this semester. Granted I missed 2 due to ACTF and there was no class Monday because of Martin Luther King Day, but still. 1 class in 2 weeks. Ouch. Its not like I'm really missed because there are a few hundred people but I would be pissed if I failed and had to take it over.
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Oh, my summer plans fell through. No England study abroad for me. The company my dad works for was bought out so money is all screwy, especially since some upper level peeps are getting indicted for something to do with fraud and stock options or not reporting taxes or something who knows. Oh and then theres the fact that my family gained the financial responsibility of another 16 yr old with absolutely no help from anyone. And then there was the emergency trip to the UK for my parents when my grandfather died. So financially things suck ass right now I guess. My mother didn't say it in those words exactly but I'm pretty good at reading between the lines. So i'll be here all summer working my ass off both at work and school. fun fun. That sounds horribly selfish, but if I want to make it as an actor/ into grad school I HAVE to have summer acting experience from other places. That can't happen when I'm broke and stuck in West Lafayette. My options aren't exactly varied here.
*****
The theatre season for next semester kicks ass. First is an all undergrad show thats yet to be determined. w00t for new grad actors that don't get cast in the first show of the season. Then its Marat/Sade (the real names really fucking long) then Trojan Women, and second semester is The Underpants, and Hair (the musical...my friends and I have been debating what the departments going to do with the fact that theres pretty much full nudity by the end of the show from pretty much the whole cast)
******
This is a fucking huge post, but oh guess what? I'm still not tired! I have a feeling I'm not going to conditioning. I can't get through the day on 4 hours of sleep. Well I know I can i've done it before and on less but I really dont want to get into that habit of not sleeping quite yet. Its only the 3rd week of the semester. I want to save that for atleast the 4th week since I have to close at work a week from tomorrow, something I havent done since August and its with different people, jobs, and store. I haven't had caffeine in about 6/1/2 hours so thats not whats keeping me awake, and I don't have anything tomorrow I'm unprepared for or nervous about.
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Meh, I'm off to try sleeping on the floor of my bedroom maybe that'll work. Who knows.