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[weezie_05]

I don't know if its just because x-mas is just around the corner but everyone I know see's to be getting hooked up, pregnant or engaged. Everyone around me seems to be finding someone to date, and I keep hearing this about people I went to high school with. In just the past week and a half, I've heard that 2 girls I graduated with are pregnant and that 2 of my guy friends from high school just got engaged. I don't know why it bothers me. Well it doesn't so much bother me as weird me out. Maybe I'm just partly jealous who knows. But i'm just feeling older and more out of things than usual. Ashley, one of my best friends is having what she calls a midway to midlife crisis. She really wants a husband and especially wants babies. And she wants them NOW. I have no idea whats going on and its really strange. I know that everyones getting older and growing up but I'm 20 for fucks sake. I know that something could happen and i could drop dead tomorrow but still. I'm planning on having a lot more of life left to live.

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I just reread the above and realized i'm whining. Apologies to all