forget about it or lose yourself in the music?
hello everyone,
been listening to music i've downloaded (abbs you gotta remind me of the stuff we were listening to on the way to the service remember?) dancing like no tomorrow. it's teh only way i can get out my aggression. i know one of dana's favorite dance songs was sand storm so i've been dancing along to that loads. i talked to mom for a while. it helps. lou keeps asking me to join him sleeping in our bed but i can't. it's so dark, so final. i can't cope with it. my mind is too free then. my mind isn't safe to be left on its own at the best of times so now i dont dare. last night when i turned off the tv i broke down. we were up for hours debating, the thing that will drive us crazy. sometimes i think i'll be fine, the next moment i'm lost again and don't know how life is going to be.....
where ever dana is, she's dancing and i want to be right there with her, pumping my arms and legs letting the music take me away, away from all the pain..
been listening to music i've downloaded (abbs you gotta remind me of the stuff we were listening to on the way to the service remember?) dancing like no tomorrow. it's teh only way i can get out my aggression. i know one of dana's favorite dance songs was sand storm so i've been dancing along to that loads. i talked to mom for a while. it helps. lou keeps asking me to join him sleeping in our bed but i can't. it's so dark, so final. i can't cope with it. my mind is too free then. my mind isn't safe to be left on its own at the best of times so now i dont dare. last night when i turned off the tv i broke down. we were up for hours debating, the thing that will drive us crazy. sometimes i think i'll be fine, the next moment i'm lost again and don't know how life is going to be.....
where ever dana is, she's dancing and i want to be right there with her, pumping my arms and legs letting the music take me away, away from all the pain..