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Today I've given up on believing that there is someone out there for me. Today I've given up on love, I've given up hope, and I've given up on beliving that there are more than 3 categories of guys...taken, jerks, or gay. Today I can feel my self esteem lowering as I type this. Today I really didn't want to be by myself and even talking to 2 of my good friends didn't cheer me up much.
Tonight I also believe that I'm going to have another movie fest by myself. My brother got fired from his job yesterday which has already started putting stain and stress on my mom. I keep telling her it's not her problem, and she shouldn't care. It's all him, and he neededs to start looking for another job like this morning, but he didn't. He finally took his transmission in to be rebulit, and now he doesn't even have a job to pay for it. I think he's going to wait until he gets the trans back, convienentaly (SIW) not have money or a job, and have my parents pay for it before he starts looking for another job. What a dick. Tomorrow I go to Gemma's house. I see lots of beer and cigarettes in this visit.
I got my car washed today too. At a place my mom told me was really good. Next time I'm going to just do it myself for free. This place did make my car shiny, but outside of washing my windows, didn't touch it. Which left a ton of dirt on the back of my car, under and all around the spoiler, and on the rear bumper by where tires throw up all the junk they throw up on the car. Even the window washer did a half assed job. My SES light keeps coming on too. Since my dad is a mechanic, he used some of the tools from work to check it out and my #1 cylinder keeps misfiring. So I've replaced spark plugs a few weeks ago, and bought injector cleaner today. If it comes on again, one more thing can be done to try to fix it and if it's the actual injector itsself, it's under warranty.
I feel like hanging myself.
Tonight I also believe that I'm going to have another movie fest by myself. My brother got fired from his job yesterday which has already started putting stain and stress on my mom. I keep telling her it's not her problem, and she shouldn't care. It's all him, and he neededs to start looking for another job like this morning, but he didn't. He finally took his transmission in to be rebulit, and now he doesn't even have a job to pay for it. I think he's going to wait until he gets the trans back, convienentaly (SIW) not have money or a job, and have my parents pay for it before he starts looking for another job. What a dick. Tomorrow I go to Gemma's house. I see lots of beer and cigarettes in this visit.
I got my car washed today too. At a place my mom told me was really good. Next time I'm going to just do it myself for free. This place did make my car shiny, but outside of washing my windows, didn't touch it. Which left a ton of dirt on the back of my car, under and all around the spoiler, and on the rear bumper by where tires throw up all the junk they throw up on the car. Even the window washer did a half assed job. My SES light keeps coming on too. Since my dad is a mechanic, he used some of the tools from work to check it out and my #1 cylinder keeps misfiring. So I've replaced spark plugs a few weeks ago, and bought injector cleaner today. If it comes on again, one more thing can be done to try to fix it and if it's the actual injector itsself, it's under warranty.
I feel like hanging myself.