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OH GOD SIMS 2 SEASONS FOR MAC FINALLY ON PRESALE. COMES OUT MAY 23RD. oh gawd i want it so bad. I was going to preorder it until i realized that i have like less than $300 total in my checking and savings. On the plus side I've earned 21¢ since I got my savings account! I'm practically a quarter-aire!
On a related note OH GOD ELENA CALL ME BACK SO I CAN START WORKING AGAIN AND MAKING MONEY. I told her I would work whenever she needed me and however often she wants to schedule me.
Also I need to get my license but really just have no desire to drive and my mom is just driving me crazy about it which makes me want to do it even less. Also it makes me seem like such a hypocrite when I encourage Max to finish up that teensmart bullshit and get his license, and I'm not trying to be his mommy or anything, but seeing as he's already a better driver than most people I know and has a car at his disposal, and it just seems like he has it already. Boooooo I love him so much and just want him to have everything he deserves and be happy forever and ever and eeeeever.
My life is pretty boring for the most part seeing as I'm not in school or working and everyone else is doing one of both of those things, so basically I'm just on a really fucked up sleep schedule and just spend weekends with Max (with the exception of this last weekend in which I had a lovely picnic with maxigan and went to dinner with him and the gussies (damn you restaurant physics) (that pizza was really good, also), went out to Limantour for a genuine, bonafide, electrified, six-car bonfire (what'd I say? BONFIRE! what's it called? BONFIRE!) with Max and Thor and Brian and Eric and when we finally got there around 8ish, Thor promptly locked his keys in his car, there wasn't any food left for us fresh arrivals (so many people out there, btdubs), and someone used my beach blanket for a towel without my knowledge or permission, but the moon was so incredibly bright and the waves were beautiful and it was pretty and romantic and I was with max, so it was okay. When AAA finally came around 11ish and we got back in Thor's car we were starved and headed back to civilization and In N Out, which I haven't been to in maybe two years and was looking forward to. When we're almost there we find out the one in Marin closes earlier than the one in Petaluma, so we ended up going to Denny's where we thought we were going to be met by other people who never showed, and none of us really had much money so we ended up getting weird things that weren't very good seeing as it's DENNY'S. Ugh. Blech.
Anyway so I got back from that at 2ish, went to bed by four ish, woke up at 9:45 to get ready to go to the beach with momo and danyell and max and conner for mooooomoooooo's birfday. North beach in point reyes, fog, cold, some wind, incredibly dangerous but incredibly beautiful surf, and danyell still went swimming. All in all a lovely day regardless of weather (which did get nice for a while), then dinner at house of lee (god i could live for a year off those pork pastries and breakfast sausage with maple syrup), some paper mario at max's, and a sudden migraine, all of which conspired to put me to sleep before 11 o'clock for the first time in what has to be months.
So now that my weekend is over I'm back to sitting at home and being pestered and having time to worry about work and school and life and shit like that. Like I love working at See's with Elena and company, but if want to go to srjc (which i would rather do than go to com only academics wise but definitely not location wise) then I don't have tome to work unless it's on weekends and I need those for seeing my friends and boyfriend and not going crazy, but the pay isn't that great so I should prolly just find a job in santa rosa if I do go up there, but if I do go up there where do I live? So not willing to take the over an hour each way twice a day and live with my parents but no one else I would consider living with goes there except for max who a) is already moving in with like 4 of the gussies and b) is wary of living together anyway. And my mom is bugging me about taking summer classes at com seeing as I'm not going to camp this year (seeing as I gave up my free vacation so I could work and be with people I don't get to see enough), but I really just want to be able to enjoy my summer as a young person before I'm old and in some job I hate where I don't get a whole summer off. I want to be able to work a good amount and make money and save money and build up my bank account so I have half a chance of being semi self-sufficient when the summer ends. oh also the fact that basically an entire group of max's friends hate me for spending time with him and because I wear crocs, so now whenever I'm with him and run into any of them or they get mentioned, i feel either guilty or just plain bad, like they're his wife and I'm some floozy he spends all his time with. Having some of the person who you love more than anything's best friends think you're a manipulative bitch who isn't good enough for him and needs to just go away (oh also who think you're a worthless human being because of the shoes you like), who have hung out with for probably less an hour total in your whole life and have really made no effort to get to know you at all, well frankly it sucks and hurts and makes you feel pretty shitty.
ugh. I want to eat delicious fresh salads and kfc and some delicious expensive-tasting entirely too-rich dessert and a snickers bar and be on a human sleep schedule instead of sleeping from 4am to 4pm and only having a life from thursday night to sunday.
so yeah. freaking out about life in lots of ways.
On a related note OH GOD ELENA CALL ME BACK SO I CAN START WORKING AGAIN AND MAKING MONEY. I told her I would work whenever she needed me and however often she wants to schedule me.
Also I need to get my license but really just have no desire to drive and my mom is just driving me crazy about it which makes me want to do it even less. Also it makes me seem like such a hypocrite when I encourage Max to finish up that teensmart bullshit and get his license, and I'm not trying to be his mommy or anything, but seeing as he's already a better driver than most people I know and has a car at his disposal, and it just seems like he has it already. Boooooo I love him so much and just want him to have everything he deserves and be happy forever and ever and eeeeever.
My life is pretty boring for the most part seeing as I'm not in school or working and everyone else is doing one of both of those things, so basically I'm just on a really fucked up sleep schedule and just spend weekends with Max (with the exception of this last weekend in which I had a lovely picnic with maxigan and went to dinner with him and the gussies (damn you restaurant physics) (that pizza was really good, also), went out to Limantour for a genuine, bonafide, electrified, six-car bonfire (what'd I say? BONFIRE! what's it called? BONFIRE!) with Max and Thor and Brian and Eric and when we finally got there around 8ish, Thor promptly locked his keys in his car, there wasn't any food left for us fresh arrivals (so many people out there, btdubs), and someone used my beach blanket for a towel without my knowledge or permission, but the moon was so incredibly bright and the waves were beautiful and it was pretty and romantic and I was with max, so it was okay. When AAA finally came around 11ish and we got back in Thor's car we were starved and headed back to civilization and In N Out, which I haven't been to in maybe two years and was looking forward to. When we're almost there we find out the one in Marin closes earlier than the one in Petaluma, so we ended up going to Denny's where we thought we were going to be met by other people who never showed, and none of us really had much money so we ended up getting weird things that weren't very good seeing as it's DENNY'S. Ugh. Blech.
Anyway so I got back from that at 2ish, went to bed by four ish, woke up at 9:45 to get ready to go to the beach with momo and danyell and max and conner for mooooomoooooo's birfday. North beach in point reyes, fog, cold, some wind, incredibly dangerous but incredibly beautiful surf, and danyell still went swimming. All in all a lovely day regardless of weather (which did get nice for a while), then dinner at house of lee (god i could live for a year off those pork pastries and breakfast sausage with maple syrup), some paper mario at max's, and a sudden migraine, all of which conspired to put me to sleep before 11 o'clock for the first time in what has to be months.
So now that my weekend is over I'm back to sitting at home and being pestered and having time to worry about work and school and life and shit like that. Like I love working at See's with Elena and company, but if want to go to srjc (which i would rather do than go to com only academics wise but definitely not location wise) then I don't have tome to work unless it's on weekends and I need those for seeing my friends and boyfriend and not going crazy, but the pay isn't that great so I should prolly just find a job in santa rosa if I do go up there, but if I do go up there where do I live? So not willing to take the over an hour each way twice a day and live with my parents but no one else I would consider living with goes there except for max who a) is already moving in with like 4 of the gussies and b) is wary of living together anyway. And my mom is bugging me about taking summer classes at com seeing as I'm not going to camp this year (seeing as I gave up my free vacation so I could work and be with people I don't get to see enough), but I really just want to be able to enjoy my summer as a young person before I'm old and in some job I hate where I don't get a whole summer off. I want to be able to work a good amount and make money and save money and build up my bank account so I have half a chance of being semi self-sufficient when the summer ends. oh also the fact that basically an entire group of max's friends hate me for spending time with him and because I wear crocs, so now whenever I'm with him and run into any of them or they get mentioned, i feel either guilty or just plain bad, like they're his wife and I'm some floozy he spends all his time with. Having some of the person who you love more than anything's best friends think you're a manipulative bitch who isn't good enough for him and needs to just go away (oh also who think you're a worthless human being because of the shoes you like), who have hung out with for probably less an hour total in your whole life and have really made no effort to get to know you at all, well frankly it sucks and hurts and makes you feel pretty shitty.
ugh. I want to eat delicious fresh salads and kfc and some delicious expensive-tasting entirely too-rich dessert and a snickers bar and be on a human sleep schedule instead of sleeping from 4am to 4pm and only having a life from thursday night to sunday.
so yeah. freaking out about life in lots of ways.