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i am on day 5 of drinking almost everynight. and it doesn't help that i haven't been laid since oct. and it doesn't help i want to fuck me, and he doesn't want me too...and why can't find someone like him, god...if he didn't think of me as a his best friend! why cant i drug him and fuck him silly. and neal, why does he have a girl friend..i thought i might have a chance! good god...and the whole spencer thing that sure what to do about that! good god..please it would be better off to just end it..might make everything easier.