my heart hurts.
wow, it's been forever.
havent been up to all that much. moving out was alright. moving sucks period, anytime. but moving out with all your friends there is just really hard. so that sucked.
spent the week at allison's, babysitting all week. so that's been fun. not. lol. it's not actually that bad. when he's good. haha.
on saturday i went to scott's "cowboys and indians" party. interesting night, to say the least. i found these kickass boots at value village, an awesome corona hat at walmart, and this western shirt [i'm sure pictures will soon follow]. everyone looked great. scott as an indian [in just a loincloth..] lol. the night was sad, though. i knew it'd be one of the last times to see and hang out with everyone. but i had a good time, nonetheless.
monday [last night] i went back to school for my official going away party thing. it was fun. i had a good time, drinking, talking with everyone. but inside it was really hard for me not to cry the whole time. i dont want to leave my friends.. but what can i do. i know they all know i love them [or at least they should]. and i'll be back to see them all soon.
well today started out as a good day.. babysat this morning. then megan called me this afternoon to tell me the most saddening news i think i've ever heard.. [i took what i wrote on myspace].
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as i sit here to write this, so many words are coming to my mind.
i've known kristin since the first day of school, almost 3 years ago. we hit it off right away, and i knew it would blossom into a great friendship.she was one of my first best friends at seattle u. i was her "texan vixen fox" and she was my "old maid." we philosophized about st augustine.. fantasized about living in the times of aristotle and socrates.. joked about the south.. and laughed about how crazy we are with each other.
and now she's gone. she died last night from a brain aneurysm. started as a headache, and ended as soon as it started. i saw her a couple weeks ago, where we hung out and laughed all night.. her, me, phoebe. i talked to her just last week about how we should hang out really soon cause we missed each other. her last text message to me read "dear monica, you are a fox, and i love you."
and i didnt get to say goodbye. i know i couldnt have done anything to stop it. and i know she knew i loved her. but if i only had one last chance to tell her what she meant to me and how much of an impact she made in my life. cause she did. she meant so much to me. and i'll never know if she really knew that.
i may not say it very often to a lot of you. but i love each and every one of you reading this so much. you all mean the world to me.
we could all be gone tomorrow. dont be afraid to tell someone you love them. cause it may be the last time you see them.
i'll miss you so much, kristin.. and i know i'm not the only one. and i know i'll see you again one day.
havent been up to all that much. moving out was alright. moving sucks period, anytime. but moving out with all your friends there is just really hard. so that sucked.
spent the week at allison's, babysitting all week. so that's been fun. not. lol. it's not actually that bad. when he's good. haha.
on saturday i went to scott's "cowboys and indians" party. interesting night, to say the least. i found these kickass boots at value village, an awesome corona hat at walmart, and this western shirt [i'm sure pictures will soon follow]. everyone looked great. scott as an indian [in just a loincloth..] lol. the night was sad, though. i knew it'd be one of the last times to see and hang out with everyone. but i had a good time, nonetheless.
monday [last night] i went back to school for my official going away party thing. it was fun. i had a good time, drinking, talking with everyone. but inside it was really hard for me not to cry the whole time. i dont want to leave my friends.. but what can i do. i know they all know i love them [or at least they should]. and i'll be back to see them all soon.
well today started out as a good day.. babysat this morning. then megan called me this afternoon to tell me the most saddening news i think i've ever heard.. [i took what i wrote on myspace].
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as i sit here to write this, so many words are coming to my mind.
i've known kristin since the first day of school, almost 3 years ago. we hit it off right away, and i knew it would blossom into a great friendship.she was one of my first best friends at seattle u. i was her "texan vixen fox" and she was my "old maid." we philosophized about st augustine.. fantasized about living in the times of aristotle and socrates.. joked about the south.. and laughed about how crazy we are with each other.
and now she's gone. she died last night from a brain aneurysm. started as a headache, and ended as soon as it started. i saw her a couple weeks ago, where we hung out and laughed all night.. her, me, phoebe. i talked to her just last week about how we should hang out really soon cause we missed each other. her last text message to me read "dear monica, you are a fox, and i love you."
and i didnt get to say goodbye. i know i couldnt have done anything to stop it. and i know she knew i loved her. but if i only had one last chance to tell her what she meant to me and how much of an impact she made in my life. cause she did. she meant so much to me. and i'll never know if she really knew that.
i may not say it very often to a lot of you. but i love each and every one of you reading this so much. you all mean the world to me.
we could all be gone tomorrow. dont be afraid to tell someone you love them. cause it may be the last time you see them.
i'll miss you so much, kristin.. and i know i'm not the only one. and i know i'll see you again one day.