sooo... things are different
so its a little better here, but not too much better. i've been doing all the usual state things, going out every night and having i guess a good time, i dunno, things are never really fun when you're there but later on you're supposed to remember them fondly.
i've been mostly hanging out with people from kimball which might be a mistake but i feel like i will eventually make my own friends in classes and stuff. the weird thing is it just feels like anyone i meet who i actually think is cool, i already know somehow. like they are a friend of a friend, or i knew them from summer institute, or they went to keller and shit. but the coolest people i have met are in that category so i guess i dont mind not finding new original people if the people i do find are cool. however i am sure cell phone bills will be through the roof, as they have the last few months.
last night i had to walk home from the other end of grand river in the pouring rain, so i went to jordans with kyle to dry off and made jordans bed for him because he is a fucking idiot who cant make his own bed.
i miss home so much but the shitty thing is no matter how often i go back, my stuff is all here and i can never be really comfortable without it feeling like home without all my things. so basically i dont feel at home here and i wont feel right at home. i just miss bj and my family so much and if bj comes up here that will be weird too. its like things are separating into two worlds that i cant meld together and that makes me so sad.
my roommate is a little better now that we have lofts and you can really see her shit close up. she still buys the weirdest stuff and says weird things and basically annoys me a lot. i thought i was making friends on my floor but everyone i might have wanted to be friends with turned out to be not so cool. i know i'm picky about people but it seems like i would have a good chance of finding someone to hang out with out of all these. or i could go to brody and holmes everyday to see most of my friends.... the only people i know near me are guys, so i dunno. i just miss the way things used to be so much and i just want to start going to class so i have a purpose here. tomorrow! i'm gonna make sure i know my way around today.
i am sure things will get better, i just dont know when. and i dont know when i wont feel weird about bj coming here but he will be in a few days probably so i am really really excited to see him, i have missed him so much.
i've been mostly hanging out with people from kimball which might be a mistake but i feel like i will eventually make my own friends in classes and stuff. the weird thing is it just feels like anyone i meet who i actually think is cool, i already know somehow. like they are a friend of a friend, or i knew them from summer institute, or they went to keller and shit. but the coolest people i have met are in that category so i guess i dont mind not finding new original people if the people i do find are cool. however i am sure cell phone bills will be through the roof, as they have the last few months.
last night i had to walk home from the other end of grand river in the pouring rain, so i went to jordans with kyle to dry off and made jordans bed for him because he is a fucking idiot who cant make his own bed.
i miss home so much but the shitty thing is no matter how often i go back, my stuff is all here and i can never be really comfortable without it feeling like home without all my things. so basically i dont feel at home here and i wont feel right at home. i just miss bj and my family so much and if bj comes up here that will be weird too. its like things are separating into two worlds that i cant meld together and that makes me so sad.
my roommate is a little better now that we have lofts and you can really see her shit close up. she still buys the weirdest stuff and says weird things and basically annoys me a lot. i thought i was making friends on my floor but everyone i might have wanted to be friends with turned out to be not so cool. i know i'm picky about people but it seems like i would have a good chance of finding someone to hang out with out of all these. or i could go to brody and holmes everyday to see most of my friends.... the only people i know near me are guys, so i dunno. i just miss the way things used to be so much and i just want to start going to class so i have a purpose here. tomorrow! i'm gonna make sure i know my way around today.
i am sure things will get better, i just dont know when. and i dont know when i wont feel weird about bj coming here but he will be in a few days probably so i am really really excited to see him, i have missed him so much.