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"whY dO we kiLl peOPlE...whO kiLl peOplE...to sHow thAT kiLling peoPle iS wroNg?"
so yes...today was a grreat day...the weeked was great..although i stood "him" up on saturday...which was sooo horrible...which led to our talking till almost 4 in the morning..and talking again the next morning..the next day..to this day....i love it...i can ACTUALLY hold a conversation with him...its NEVER just about HIM..and what HE did...my friends say he likes me..that it "seems" like he does...but i dunno..sometimes when it "Seems" like he does...doesnt' really mean he does...oh man..i remember when i felt this way about a certain someone..MIKE..yeah..the exact same feeling...didn't eat...my stomach always hurt..always thinking about him...every little thing reminded me of him..it's all the little things..even things he doesn't even know i rememeber..he makes me smile...when i hear his name..i always smile..gosh...and then he tells me things...like.."oh..i heard jack johnson today and it reminded me of you" it's things like that..that get me all nervous and giddy inside...but all he says is "gosh natalie..you make me laugh"...but is that all it's ever going to be? can it ever get to MORE THAN FRIENDS????? cuz that's usually all i ever am..JUST A FRIEND...and it always hurts in the end..it's a guy like "he who shall not be named" that i learn to love...because i see myself in the long run with him..and by long run i mean RELATIONSHIP..because he IS one of the sweetest guys i have ever known...he's sooo caring...he always asks what i did...he actually WANTS to know what i did...he always texts me to say good morning...ugh..i just like everything about him..i mean...i'm not a very commited person..but if anything were to ever happen with him....i'd LOVE and WANT to learn how to try and keep things together...to makes things work....to never ever lose him like i lost that other someone....but...he's taking mike's place in my heart...and i think i'm starting to like it...(=
so yes...today was a grreat day...the weeked was great..although i stood "him" up on saturday...which was sooo horrible...which led to our talking till almost 4 in the morning..and talking again the next morning..the next day..to this day....i love it...i can ACTUALLY hold a conversation with him...its NEVER just about HIM..and what HE did...my friends say he likes me..that it "seems" like he does...but i dunno..sometimes when it "Seems" like he does...doesnt' really mean he does...oh man..i remember when i felt this way about a certain someone..MIKE..yeah..the exact same feeling...didn't eat...my stomach always hurt..always thinking about him...every little thing reminded me of him..it's all the little things..even things he doesn't even know i rememeber..he makes me smile...when i hear his name..i always smile..gosh...and then he tells me things...like.."oh..i heard jack johnson today and it reminded me of you" it's things like that..that get me all nervous and giddy inside...but all he says is "gosh natalie..you make me laugh"...but is that all it's ever going to be? can it ever get to MORE THAN FRIENDS????? cuz that's usually all i ever am..JUST A FRIEND...and it always hurts in the end..it's a guy like "he who shall not be named" that i learn to love...because i see myself in the long run with him..and by long run i mean RELATIONSHIP..because he IS one of the sweetest guys i have ever known...he's sooo caring...he always asks what i did...he actually WANTS to know what i did...he always texts me to say good morning...ugh..i just like everything about him..i mean...i'm not a very commited person..but if anything were to ever happen with him....i'd LOVE and WANT to learn how to try and keep things together...to makes things work....to never ever lose him like i lost that other someone....but...he's taking mike's place in my heart...and i think i'm starting to like it...(=