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Idk what im doing...
Idk how i feel truthfully
It sucked walking past her today it was just a feeling you wish didnt have to happen but cant change she apparently wasnt ready or something i dont even know the real reason because im obviously getting a vaigue one that will make you feel less crappy
idk what to do or w.e there isnt much i can say to her its up to her to change this thing because ive done enough. She wants to be just friends its not that easy im not gonna go outta my way to smile and wave.. I cant do that it would be too much. I hate hearing we can be friends because that is the biggest slap in the face
you cant be just friends with a person you spent month after month with and saw them as a reason to get up in the morning and say "least im seeing her today" or just smile and say Ive got all I need... i cant act like a friend and i cant act the way i really want to put my hands on her hips and look her in the eyes and try to make her laugh because those days are through...
I remember when we just started out and it was the first time we went to her house and we went on a walk and we were sitting on the middle school near the baseball diamond on the bleachers it was dark and i remember just talking and not having a single dull moment and me thinking how incredible it was for me to find someone like this and the countless times we went on walks and forced her to wear my jacket even though i was frozen because it was below 0 out side. But for some reason it didnt bother me so much I felt alot better than i did warm.
But im done writting gay sob storys
Idk how i feel truthfully
It sucked walking past her today it was just a feeling you wish didnt have to happen but cant change she apparently wasnt ready or something i dont even know the real reason because im obviously getting a vaigue one that will make you feel less crappy
idk what to do or w.e there isnt much i can say to her its up to her to change this thing because ive done enough. She wants to be just friends its not that easy im not gonna go outta my way to smile and wave.. I cant do that it would be too much. I hate hearing we can be friends because that is the biggest slap in the face
you cant be just friends with a person you spent month after month with and saw them as a reason to get up in the morning and say "least im seeing her today" or just smile and say Ive got all I need... i cant act like a friend and i cant act the way i really want to put my hands on her hips and look her in the eyes and try to make her laugh because those days are through...
I remember when we just started out and it was the first time we went to her house and we went on a walk and we were sitting on the middle school near the baseball diamond on the bleachers it was dark and i remember just talking and not having a single dull moment and me thinking how incredible it was for me to find someone like this and the countless times we went on walks and forced her to wear my jacket even though i was frozen because it was below 0 out side. But for some reason it didnt bother me so much I felt alot better than i did warm.
But im done writting gay sob storys