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fuck this
seriously i dont know what im doing with this!
is there a reason why im so drawn to this girl i really just wanna give it up.
i cant take this anymore i hate knowing that i have no chance in hell with this girl.
there must be somthing wrong with me that im not seeing myself.
i hate lying to her and myself and saying im perfectly fine because im no where near it.
why does this have to happen with the most perfect girl.
i wanna enjoy myself and my life but this is the thing that is stopping me.
the only thing i could ask for right now is her but im acting really silly thinking of it like a dream that might come true.
she has everything i want in a girl and so much more i know i could treat her right.
but that doesnt matter at all.
nether does this whole entry its just a pile of anger that is basically just a pussy way to get it out.
i just wish the one thing i really want could come true
i wish things could just work out right for me and so i can have a reason to be the ryan that is constently smiling and not have a reason to be sad
i dont know what else to do to make things better for me
i can make her feel amazing but it wont do a single thing for myself
i just want to hear "i love you" and no that she means it that is somthing i just wish for
but now im getting into this whole other mode which is just stupid and dreamy like i have this to look foward to when its like a one in a million chance of that coming from her mouth.
im just gonna stop
seriously i dont know what im doing with this!
is there a reason why im so drawn to this girl i really just wanna give it up.
i cant take this anymore i hate knowing that i have no chance in hell with this girl.
there must be somthing wrong with me that im not seeing myself.
i hate lying to her and myself and saying im perfectly fine because im no where near it.
why does this have to happen with the most perfect girl.
i wanna enjoy myself and my life but this is the thing that is stopping me.
the only thing i could ask for right now is her but im acting really silly thinking of it like a dream that might come true.
she has everything i want in a girl and so much more i know i could treat her right.
but that doesnt matter at all.
nether does this whole entry its just a pile of anger that is basically just a pussy way to get it out.
i just wish the one thing i really want could come true
i wish things could just work out right for me and so i can have a reason to be the ryan that is constently smiling and not have a reason to be sad
i dont know what else to do to make things better for me
i can make her feel amazing but it wont do a single thing for myself
i just want to hear "i love you" and no that she means it that is somthing i just wish for
but now im getting into this whole other mode which is just stupid and dreamy like i have this to look foward to when its like a one in a million chance of that coming from her mouth.
im just gonna stop