College woes... oh the agony

[weewee811]

oh my gosh, I am so stressing over everything. How am I supposed to know what I want to do with the rest of my life? I'm only 18! I don't see how I should be expected to make that kind of decision! And for college, how are you supposed to know where to go? I don't even know how to go about looking for a place, because I don't know what I want or what I need. How are you supposed to know if one school is better for you than another and how are you supposed to find the ones that are better? I need someone to just pick out some that would be good for me and let me go from there. Sure school send stuff in the mail, but it's all the same. Plus, there's the whole money thing. How are you supposed to find scholarships? I know there's a ton of randon, odd scholarships out there, but unless they present themselves to me (which they haven't done), how am I supposed to find them? Think there's any out there for being a twin? I think there should be- definitely. And then there's tests. What kind of scores are good enough? When do you know when to stop taking them? I mean, different schools want different things, but if you don't know what school you want, how do you know what score you need? And, all this on top of the cross country season- ahhh!!! There's so much to do, to think about, and not nearly enough time to do it. When am I supposed to go visit schools? With cross country meets nearly every weekend, there's no time. When do I need to try and start filling out applications? It just makes me want to scream!!!! I can't take it- I've waited too long to start thinking about it, but I guess that's my own freakin fault. Grr- it's so much easier just to not even bother myself with it. But, I need to and that is aggrevating! I should probably go talk to the counselor, but I don't know when. Is she there after school? What would I say?- there's too many questions!

i needed to vent...