that'll never be me, that'll never be me, that'll never me no, don't you ever think it
Which John Cusack Are You?
there's a certain freedom in knowing that nobody is reading yr jounral. i check mia's almost everyday, and i'm sure a few other people do too since she's got all those interesting japan stories to tell. so maybe she feels pressure to write almost that often. but since nobody's reading mine, it doesn't matter when the fuck i post or don't post. i was feeling pressure to complete that last post i wrote like a week ago (?) but when i thought about it i realised that it doesn't even fucking matter since nobody is reading it.
so i'm pretty fucked up right now, but i feel like there's a whole bunch of shit i want to write since i'm here in the house all by myself. but on the other hand, it's taking me forever just to write this much since i can't fucking type. to make a long story short, i'm here by myself on basicallly a weekend night (since it's a holiday) fucked up. `cause i'm the only one who has to work tomorrow and everybody else went downtown. even him. but i wouldn't want him to stay home by any means of course just for me. but it's still a bummer.