my life as Dec
Ok so how much do i love my life I'm stressed i work all the time, i have no social life I'm not dating anyone and i freakin love my life no really thats not sarcasim its like all the things that I dont have right now dont matter cause of what i do have. Jess just made me read one of her friends journal which was really depressing and on the obsessive side and I thought damn that used to be me that is really depressing. I mean I still have spells of depression but whatever I know what they are how to deal with them its not a big deal I love spending time by myself which is something I used to hate. I realized that things are wrong sometimes not because some greater being hates me or i have bad karma but because sometmimes things have to get worse before they get better and the best part is after everything crashed and burned last spring i had the best summer of my life so i come back here and things or ok but not great, so next logical step is to try something new again. Sometimes I wish I had learned all this earlier and I hadnt questioned myself so much and always felt bad about my life but I guess I had to be that way then in order to appreciate what i have now and I have a lot. I have thebest friends ever (who9 I miss!!!) the best family in the world a good job, money, theres not much more i could ask for.
As of right now the plan is to move to California with Trish and maybe Ashley, Mindy and Chris. Either way it would be nice to go out and try something new with someone I know I do need a little stability in my life. Well its a thought at least and i'm really excited about it. Not much else going on I really really need to start sleeping someday. I just got my new computer which kicks ass so that makes me happy and even though i work retail and hate the holidays most of the time I'm really excited about christmas I'm goin to CT this weekend to see my moms concert and then we're going to decorate the house and get a tree YAY!! and Cathys going to come down to i think so that should be a lot of fun. I just cant get over life sometimes its so funny so when i do start getting way to stressed or depressed all I do now it laugh its freakin amazing. I have to go see the Cashier now but this was a my great update for the month I'll try to keep up more postings but no promisses.
peace
As of right now the plan is to move to California with Trish and maybe Ashley, Mindy and Chris. Either way it would be nice to go out and try something new with someone I know I do need a little stability in my life. Well its a thought at least and i'm really excited about it. Not much else going on I really really need to start sleeping someday. I just got my new computer which kicks ass so that makes me happy and even though i work retail and hate the holidays most of the time I'm really excited about christmas I'm goin to CT this weekend to see my moms concert and then we're going to decorate the house and get a tree YAY!! and Cathys going to come down to i think so that should be a lot of fun. I just cant get over life sometimes its so funny so when i do start getting way to stressed or depressed all I do now it laugh its freakin amazing. I have to go see the Cashier now but this was a my great update for the month I'll try to keep up more postings but no promisses.
peace