well it isnt much but here is that update...sigh....
well I feel like I owe you guys an apologie because I have not been a very good Ljer lately for that i am sorry!!! please forgive me...
well I have been through alot ... my kids dad weaseled his way back in to my bed and he was telling me how much he loves me....YAY!!!!! NOT!!!!
he asked me to marry him on mothersday!!! well that wensday I found out he has been living with a girl named angie for the last 2 1/2 years????? and he has been going out with her for 5 years and now they are having a kid ... so that makes 5 baby mamas and 7 fucking snot nosed bratts!!!! how dare he think that i would ever leave tony for him ... the truth of the matter is that I still love my kids dad and this is really hurtting me I am having seperation anxioty , my heart hurts {no I mean it really hurts } not from being broken...
my stress is at its worst and I can not control my behaviors... mentally I am FUCKED!!!
I have so much on my plate and I dont even know what to do... not to mention we will be homeless with no family that I could impose on in any way...
I am going crazy and I need so much help I just keep myself hidden away in my own dark seacret place where I dont even have to take a chance at being hurt by anyone ... and I know it is wrong for me too do that but it is my safe place right now... I feel myself slipping in to a bad bout of deppression and I am going fast...
I hope all is well with all of you ... I hope your lives are better than mine...
loves ya Kay-C
well I have been through alot ... my kids dad weaseled his way back in to my bed and he was telling me how much he loves me....YAY!!!!! NOT!!!!
he asked me to marry him on mothersday!!! well that wensday I found out he has been living with a girl named angie for the last 2 1/2 years????? and he has been going out with her for 5 years and now they are having a kid ... so that makes 5 baby mamas and 7 fucking snot nosed bratts!!!! how dare he think that i would ever leave tony for him ... the truth of the matter is that I still love my kids dad and this is really hurtting me I am having seperation anxioty , my heart hurts {no I mean it really hurts } not from being broken...
my stress is at its worst and I can not control my behaviors... mentally I am FUCKED!!!
I have so much on my plate and I dont even know what to do... not to mention we will be homeless with no family that I could impose on in any way...
I am going crazy and I need so much help I just keep myself hidden away in my own dark seacret place where I dont even have to take a chance at being hurt by anyone ... and I know it is wrong for me too do that but it is my safe place right now... I feel myself slipping in to a bad bout of deppression and I am going fast...
I hope all is well with all of you ... I hope your lives are better than mine...
loves ya Kay-C