Feb 07, 2004 23:34
Call me a fuck up cuz that's what i am; cant do anything right, cant even stand on my own. Give me an inch... ill take a mile and i wont look back. But ill tell you ill get caught cuz its not in my nature to be sly although i do try.
Yeah, so tonight didnt start off so good, stayin home eatin dinner with the adults while the children watch movies and play games... i hate bein in the middle... then i thought it was gettin better! Jaime calls me and asks if i can come out... she cait and tor need to be rescued from some rave at masters... a drug-free rave mind you! so i said id try to get out and i did so successfully. I told my mom they wanted me to come to elements after the coffehouse and hang out til 11... she said yes and i was on my way to lord only knows where! so i got there and picked them up from this drug-free rave and we went to McDonalds of Simsbury. As we're drivin and talkin im feelin kindda funny and i tell them my rents probably went to elements to check on me and see if i was okay! so we all laughed and kept drivin. Dropped tor and jaime off and took cait home too... didnt get home til 25 after 11 when i was supposed to be there at 11. haha... first fuck up! so then i walked into teh family room with the cat and on my way upstairs my dad asked where i had been. Now, from the look on his face i knew he knew i wasnt at elements. he kept asking me where i had been so i told him i had gone to elements then the McD's in Simsbury... I swear to you they must have hired a fucking private investigator or something... that or as i said in the car, they went to elements to check up on me! how trusting are my parents?! but i guess it makes sense seeing as how i wasnt there! haha... its one of those double edged sword type things... you know i stab you you stab me we're one big happy family with a great big stab from me to you now we should kill Barney too! you know what im talkin bout!? haha whatever! so now i dont know what but i do know that its no ones fault but my own... i made the choice and i must take responsibility for my actions! i was lectured on that the night before last after receiving my report card! but thats another story all unto itself that i dont care to delve into right at the moment... im still trying to recover from that! so now my future is in question because i chose to go and save my friends from this drug-free rave! at least my intentions were good... right?!
oh well... gonna go to sleep and wait for the early mornin to come for a fun filled day of skiing and probably long lectures! goodnight moon, goodnight silver spoon.