i should really be doing my math
but i dont want too.
god i really really really really dont want to be here. i want to go home. i kind of hate the fact that im going to stay here next semester. but, its all for the love of tia and my hatred for moving more then i have too. and the fear of money is always there. if i went back home next semester i would probably have to start paying my loans because i dont think the HCT offers anything that i need to take. i have to fill paper work out to take a class, it seems pretty bogus to me.
i want to come home so bad...im so so lonely here...i used to be the little social butterfly, but not here. i sit in my room with the door shut. i peek out into the hallway to see if theres people out there before i go out. im freaked out by a lot of the noise here too. it always sounds like theres this loud knocking sound outside.
i have to go back to mcdonalds next semester. i was going to try and be cool and try to get a job at a grocery store but im too lazy to go apply places and i already know what to do at mcdonalds. i hate hate hate learning new jobs...in case you didnt catch that, i hate it. i have to work 20-25 hours a week and save almost then entire paycheck for the whole month, that goes for both paychecks, and then take whatever else is needed out of my savings account for theses fucking payments cause the financial aid people are stupid and wont help me find any other source for money *GASP!* that was a long long sentance.
i got to talk to john yesterday!!! im so happy!!
i havent seen joe in about 3 weeks...its very odd to me and i hate it
i want to go home so i can be closer to amanda and josh and anyone else im related too. and a couple of friends. but most of my friends are gone. but when i went home last weekend i had the best time with josh, jeremy, covert, and amber. it was loads of a good time.
i've been doing pretty well getting over joe and everything, im trying anyway. but the hardest thing about it is that i dont have anyone else here except tia. i have a couple kids in my classes that i've been talking to but thats about it. it'd be nice to go to mom and dad or lela when i have a really really hard day with everything. but, tia is always there for me =) partly cause she has to be! mwahahaha! but, its part of the best friend duty.
and i may not be as close to becky as some people, or as much as i would like to be, but i want to be there in april...
im taking 17 credits next semester and hopefully working 20-25 hours. my classes are:
*Human Development in Education-EDF 225 on MWF
*Fundamentals of Art for Elementary Teachers-Art 101 MW
*US History to 1877 (DOOM!!!DOOM!!)-History 204 MWF (thank god tia is in it with me!!!)
*Math for Elementary Ed. II - Math 202 MWF
*Interpersonal Communications- Comt 110 T, Th
*Philosophical Inquiry-Phil 107 T, Th
There you have it, 17 credits...what the hell am i thinking?! i dont think i'll be able to do it. for my EDF class i have some practicum thingy where i have to work with kids for 3 hours a week (i think) in an after school type of setting....woot.
I think im going to change my major...but i have no idea to what...
off to math homework!
god i really really really really dont want to be here. i want to go home. i kind of hate the fact that im going to stay here next semester. but, its all for the love of tia and my hatred for moving more then i have too. and the fear of money is always there. if i went back home next semester i would probably have to start paying my loans because i dont think the HCT offers anything that i need to take. i have to fill paper work out to take a class, it seems pretty bogus to me.
i want to come home so bad...im so so lonely here...i used to be the little social butterfly, but not here. i sit in my room with the door shut. i peek out into the hallway to see if theres people out there before i go out. im freaked out by a lot of the noise here too. it always sounds like theres this loud knocking sound outside.
i have to go back to mcdonalds next semester. i was going to try and be cool and try to get a job at a grocery store but im too lazy to go apply places and i already know what to do at mcdonalds. i hate hate hate learning new jobs...in case you didnt catch that, i hate it. i have to work 20-25 hours a week and save almost then entire paycheck for the whole month, that goes for both paychecks, and then take whatever else is needed out of my savings account for theses fucking payments cause the financial aid people are stupid and wont help me find any other source for money *GASP!* that was a long long sentance.
i got to talk to john yesterday!!! im so happy!!
i havent seen joe in about 3 weeks...its very odd to me and i hate it
i want to go home so i can be closer to amanda and josh and anyone else im related too. and a couple of friends. but most of my friends are gone. but when i went home last weekend i had the best time with josh, jeremy, covert, and amber. it was loads of a good time.
i've been doing pretty well getting over joe and everything, im trying anyway. but the hardest thing about it is that i dont have anyone else here except tia. i have a couple kids in my classes that i've been talking to but thats about it. it'd be nice to go to mom and dad or lela when i have a really really hard day with everything. but, tia is always there for me =) partly cause she has to be! mwahahaha! but, its part of the best friend duty.
and i may not be as close to becky as some people, or as much as i would like to be, but i want to be there in april...
im taking 17 credits next semester and hopefully working 20-25 hours. my classes are:
*Human Development in Education-EDF 225 on MWF
*Fundamentals of Art for Elementary Teachers-Art 101 MW
*US History to 1877 (DOOM!!!DOOM!!)-History 204 MWF (thank god tia is in it with me!!!)
*Math for Elementary Ed. II - Math 202 MWF
*Interpersonal Communications- Comt 110 T, Th
*Philosophical Inquiry-Phil 107 T, Th
There you have it, 17 credits...what the hell am i thinking?! i dont think i'll be able to do it. for my EDF class i have some practicum thingy where i have to work with kids for 3 hours a week (i think) in an after school type of setting....woot.
I think im going to change my major...but i have no idea to what...
off to math homework!