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Well, all of this thinking and I'm bound to have revolations, right?
So the reason we ended up on this break was because of me, but I never really realized how badly I had been treating him before now. I don't know how I missed it, but when I think back, I probably don't deserve a second chance. I am a terrible girlfriend. I don't know why I have been mean. I would be rude and feel bad about it, but not change because for some reason I thought he would always be there. I can see why he would decide to end it now...I can't really explain this very well. All I can say is that I will be surprised if I haven't ruined everything already. I can hardly resist talking to him just to apologize and tell him that I finally understand why this is happening. I wish there was something I could say to him to make him see that I feel terrible about this. I just hope he is willing to listen when we do talk again. Until then I'll just sit here and think on the fact that he deserves so much more than I have given him. I hope I get the chance to try again.
So the reason we ended up on this break was because of me, but I never really realized how badly I had been treating him before now. I don't know how I missed it, but when I think back, I probably don't deserve a second chance. I am a terrible girlfriend. I don't know why I have been mean. I would be rude and feel bad about it, but not change because for some reason I thought he would always be there. I can see why he would decide to end it now...I can't really explain this very well. All I can say is that I will be surprised if I haven't ruined everything already. I can hardly resist talking to him just to apologize and tell him that I finally understand why this is happening. I wish there was something I could say to him to make him see that I feel terrible about this. I just hope he is willing to listen when we do talk again. Until then I'll just sit here and think on the fact that he deserves so much more than I have given him. I hope I get the chance to try again.