Single again
Had a GREAT time at the concert last night. Stonesour, amazing. Nonpoint, amazing. Disturbed, amazing. I saw people I haven't seen in years, and everything as perfect. Jump forward to getting back to Katie's house. She drinks too much again. Starts slapping the piss out of me because she was curious about how much it would take to piss me off. I guess the answer is about 5 minutes, because I told her to fuck off, and went to leave. She follows me outside, and starts crying... a lot... and saying she's sorry. She offers sex. I say that I'm not in the mood (I was kind of pissed). She goes off to tell me that she thinks I'm a herk, and that she fucking hates me. I ask for reasons, and she can't come up with any. She says that she has no reasons, but I'm still an asshole. She then tells me that she's sorry, and she just cares about me a lot, and is affraid of being hurt. I list everything I've done to try to prove that I cared about her. She calls me an asshole, and says I don't REALLY care. I ask why does she have to treat me like shit when she drinks, and why does she drink so often. She won't tell me, and tells me to get out. I stand up to leave, and she starts crying again saying she's sorry, and offers sex. I tell her that I'm still not in the mood. She tells me to get the fuck out. I do. I get home to get a metric fuck-ton of nasty comments, and messages on my myspace. I delete them all. She says that she doesn't want to see me ever again, and marks herself as single. I give up, and do the same. She sends me a message saying that she is sorry, and marks herself as being in a relationship again. She says that she cares. All I want is for her to mean the apology, and to promise to stop treating me like shit. I want Katie to really mean it when she says I'm sorry, and fix the problem instead of always saying I'm sorry the next day, and expecting everything to be better. She marks herself as single again. She just proved that she never gave a fuck about me. Now I've probably lost some friends because of this. I'm all sorts of depressed, and stressed, and I just want a new life. I've been getting nothing, but fucked over ever since I came back to town. I really feel like I have nothing right now, and I just want to dissapear, and never come back to this shithole.