2 seconds later.....
well...im writting again...its been oh about 7 minutes since my last entry. wow..nothing has changed...i still dont have anything to write about. the only thing that is different is that i am the only person awake in my house. this is no surprise. i stay up until 6 am and sleep most of the day. i called my treatment people today. they were having phone calls so they couldnt talk. hmmm....i think they just hate me. in therapy yesterday i made this panda out of the foam clay stuff crayola sells...im starting to really appreciate it. it has a white body and head. yellow arms and legs...and black face...only one black ear...it was an excersize to accept imperfections. this crayola foam clay panda is nowhere near perfect. yet it is in its own crayola foam clay panda way. ive been looking at cars to buy lately. i think im gonan go with the toyota corrola station wagon. that fits me pretty well. but in order to get the i must get a job. i applyed at pier one...that furniture store with the fun circle chairs (wow i really hope i dont get that job...that lady was a bitch) and i am also applying at the wonderful smoothie king. that job wouldnt be so bad. i like smoothies...in fact...i love smoothies. i just dont know if i could handle customers and stuff. people suck...they make me nervous. im pretty sure if i get a job...its gonna have something to do with interacting with people. damnit!! treatment has trained me well. i am a strong confident woman...haha fuck that. i got a lecture from my friend chris the other day about how when i wear long skirts it says "im a boy-hating prude" and when i wear long black skirts it says "im a people-hating prude" i just like the way they look...i didnt think about the damn message im sending off. and anyways...i can be girly...im girly alot...just sometimes i wanna be conservative girly...if there is such a thing. i guess im still at the phase where i have no fucking clue who i am. most people have a basic idea when they are 17...they are looking at colleges and stuff...and doing training for what they may want to do woth their lives...me....im still looking for a highschool i can survive in for more then 3 months. because i have nothing better to do im going to make a list of things i know about myself. the editting box has bullets...so im gonna use those instead of numbers...numbers have hidden meanings sometimes...
- i like orange
- i like dying my hair
- i like taking pictures
- i hate medication
- i like poca dots and checkerboard patterns
- i like to sing abnoxious songs
- i like to sing songs people like
- i suck at guitar but i like to try
- i get jealous easily
- i always feel like i want to be saved...havent determined what i want to be saved from though...
- i hate georgia...unless its the beach
- cars scare the crap out of me
- i like boys
- i hate boys
- i want to be bi-sexual...but damnit im not!!
- i dont like body hair
- peach tea is one of the greatest inventions ever
- listening to records makes me feel sophisticated
- i taught myself to like coffee
- i thrive in the heat
- i love blow pops (sour apple is the best)
- ill eat any berry...so far...
- im stopping here becasue i am lame and want to watch tv