never felt like this
So I have thought sometimes that I was the world's worst mom...but I never really felt it until this weekend. I had to look at my child and ask him "who the hell are you?...cause you aren't the boy I raised!" In that moment I felt like 20 years of parenting were blown out the window. He was cruel and hateful and I felt like I was seeing my son for the first time...and I didn't like him...yet I am the one responsible for who he has become. I laid the ground work. I am to blame.