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i feel like the angel of death.
i feel like god is punishing me for something and i don't know what!
i don't know what god and i don't know how to make what i did better.
he takes the people i love away and now he has started to hurt the people i love to get at me.
my best friends sister past away on tuesday and i only found out today, i know i need to look after her but i can't help feeling guilt for all the wrongs i might have done to her and how i am not fit to be her friend.
this brings the list of death up to 6 people in the last 2 years, i don't want any new friends if it means i will have to lose them or have them lose someone for my mistakes.