exhausting stupidness
my parents are in a HUGE fight. it's over a stupid misunderstanding. my dad called me last night to tell me he was sorry and that he ruined christmas (he didn't) and then asked me to call my mom. so i did. and that was an hour and forty-five minutes of my life that i'll never get back. drunken circular arguments, around and around and around. i wish i could walk away from those conversations. but i can't because she's my mom and i love her.
i called her monday at two in the afternoon to ask about picking up some family cookbooks after work. she was drunk. piss-ass drunk. i didn't make a comment at the time. the whole fight with my dad happened before that and she was wallowing. i discovered that last night.
she's not wrong about being angry. but there has to be a point where she decides to just get over it. no one was trying to hurt her on purpose. my dad got put in a bad situation and lied to her to buy time so he could work things out. he didn't get to it in time and my mom got blind-sided by someone she hates. he was wrong for that and she has a right to be angry. but what's done is done, and no one had ill intentions.
i wish someone, anyone, were looking forward to christmas like i am. i wish someone would share in the excitement i feel and the thankfulness i have that we're all going to be together and that everyone is healthy and happy and has a good life. i refuse to not be happy about christmas. but sometimes even happiness is a very lonely place.
“Truth is, everybody’s going to hurt you. You just gotta find the ones who are worth suffering for.” ~Bob Marley
i called her monday at two in the afternoon to ask about picking up some family cookbooks after work. she was drunk. piss-ass drunk. i didn't make a comment at the time. the whole fight with my dad happened before that and she was wallowing. i discovered that last night.
she's not wrong about being angry. but there has to be a point where she decides to just get over it. no one was trying to hurt her on purpose. my dad got put in a bad situation and lied to her to buy time so he could work things out. he didn't get to it in time and my mom got blind-sided by someone she hates. he was wrong for that and she has a right to be angry. but what's done is done, and no one had ill intentions.
i wish someone, anyone, were looking forward to christmas like i am. i wish someone would share in the excitement i feel and the thankfulness i have that we're all going to be together and that everyone is healthy and happy and has a good life. i refuse to not be happy about christmas. but sometimes even happiness is a very lonely place.
“Truth is, everybody’s going to hurt you. You just gotta find the ones who are worth suffering for.” ~Bob Marley