torn.
i found a job i could probably get in another city, that pays more and actually has benefits, and would be a change, for once...near someone i've really missed in my life...
but suddenly i've found myself with a load of cool friends/peers/artsy-fartsy people.....back in a place i've already spent years of my life...
all the while that if i want to hold onto my job of 2 years, i have to move myself closer to it, and further from the other 2...
i'm quite creative and inspired and happy and always working on..........SOMEthing, or hanging out with potential co-conspirators lately..........drinking way too much coffee, but less and less alcohol, and.......
feel like i'm living like 6 different lives. which isn't necessarilly a "bad" thing, but.....
i still sorta am craving the change of scenery.
and am way too curious about what's going to happen to me in the next few months....
to be indecisive.
as atheist as i am...i feel like.....i've somehow been handed all these possibilities and second chances or something recently. and. i guess i don't know which ones to go for.
but suddenly i've found myself with a load of cool friends/peers/artsy-fartsy people.....back in a place i've already spent years of my life...
all the while that if i want to hold onto my job of 2 years, i have to move myself closer to it, and further from the other 2...
i'm quite creative and inspired and happy and always working on..........SOMEthing, or hanging out with potential co-conspirators lately..........drinking way too much coffee, but less and less alcohol, and.......
feel like i'm living like 6 different lives. which isn't necessarilly a "bad" thing, but.....
i still sorta am craving the change of scenery.
and am way too curious about what's going to happen to me in the next few months....
to be indecisive.
as atheist as i am...i feel like.....i've somehow been handed all these possibilities and second chances or something recently. and. i guess i don't know which ones to go for.