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samantha is so freaking awesome...i mean i luv her like crazy and im really happy that i found someone like her, and i have my mom to thank for that cuz i told her that im sick of dating people that play games, and i felt that i wouldnt ever find someone out there that was for me, but she told me not to give up and i'll find someone. and like the next few days i went to the clark county fair and hungout with everyone and i talked to a lot of people (you know what i mean by talk) and then i seen this girl on a ride talking to the girl next to her, and i was like wow!! she's really cute. and arsenio asked me if i liked her and i said yea shes hott. so he went over there and talked to her for me (i told him no cuz i didnt know if she was talking about me or not) and asked if it bothered me that she has a kid i said no not really (it really doesnt as long as their not like the bad as kids that are around today, lol!!) then he said it was all me, and then i started talking to her and i ended up getting her number. so we talked every other day and a few days later she said that if i can find kayla then i could goto the party that they was having i was like okay i'll look for her. i was about to give up lookin for her and then i turned around and seen her. YAY!! haha!! i dont really remember anything from the party cuz i got way to drunk and everythings still a blur til this day, haha!! but anyways imma get to the point. when i was over her house friday night she layed her head on my chest and realized that we both shared the same heart beat. here's the weird thing...we went and seen madea's family reunion and there was this lady in it that said that she loved her husband so much that they both shared the same heart beat, and they both could finish eachothers sentences, and sam started crying. i looked at her and said why are you crying she just shook her head and said nothing it was just sad...so today she explained alot of things to me was going on, and all kinds of signs that were going on in her life. i was like man thats crazy, but its not. one thing that's weird to me though is that i don't tell anyone that i love them unless i mean it...cuz like back in the summer time i was outside of dairy queen goofing off with my friends, and talking to samantha on the phone, and when i was about to get off the phone she told me that she loves me, and i said i love you too...and i just paused for a minute was like, oh my god...i can't believe i just said that so i guess that was a clue that she could be the one for me which it feels like it is, and i hope to god that it stays this way forever.