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Keremee wanted me to update... guess I should... dont know what about though...
Well school is going okay, lots of work at the moment, im trying to get organized so I can have a social life again. I feel horrible, I cant do like anything and I have to keep telling people "no i got hw". Ugh.... i cant even find time to see Matt who lives down the road from me (Matt is my ex that I went out with just about a year ago... we started talking again last week? Anyways, I think we're considering getting back together) Actually while im on the Matt subject, I dont know if he reads this... sure he doesnt but anyways, Im not sure if I should go out with him again. He certainly deserves another chance, we never really tried and I wouldnt really mind... he makes me smile. But I think whats holding me back is that well... if im going to be realistic... we already tried it once and I mean if I go out with him again... I doubt that we would work forever. Therefore, we would end up breaking up because I dont think I will marry him. So in a way it seems like "whats the point?" But then again should I just deny myself having a good time over the fact that I know it wont work in the end?
A part of me also wants to just be free incase something "better" for lack of a better word comes along. Like I like Matt and all but what if this amazing dude comes along and we just really click? I wouldnt want to bear breaking up with him and hurting matts feelings... hes had it rough and well is a bit again and I dont want to make things worse for him.
Whats your opinion?
Well school is going okay, lots of work at the moment, im trying to get organized so I can have a social life again. I feel horrible, I cant do like anything and I have to keep telling people "no i got hw". Ugh.... i cant even find time to see Matt who lives down the road from me (Matt is my ex that I went out with just about a year ago... we started talking again last week? Anyways, I think we're considering getting back together) Actually while im on the Matt subject, I dont know if he reads this... sure he doesnt but anyways, Im not sure if I should go out with him again. He certainly deserves another chance, we never really tried and I wouldnt really mind... he makes me smile. But I think whats holding me back is that well... if im going to be realistic... we already tried it once and I mean if I go out with him again... I doubt that we would work forever. Therefore, we would end up breaking up because I dont think I will marry him. So in a way it seems like "whats the point?" But then again should I just deny myself having a good time over the fact that I know it wont work in the end?
A part of me also wants to just be free incase something "better" for lack of a better word comes along. Like I like Matt and all but what if this amazing dude comes along and we just really click? I wouldnt want to bear breaking up with him and hurting matts feelings... hes had it rough and well is a bit again and I dont want to make things worse for him.
Whats your opinion?