i went and saw my friend who is dying today.
it was really really hard to look at him. i havent seen him in a month and a half because i havent been able to drive due to my foot. he looks like he weighs 90lbs now, he is all skin and bone, it was the hardest thing i have had to see or deal with in a long time, i think he only has a few weeks left. and i dont know what i am going to do when he is gone.