no, this not about college.
I think that I have finally realized that every day is going to be a struggle to get up and go on with my life. But it will be worth it. It will be hell sometimes, and other times I won't even think about it consciously, but deep down it'll be there. For once, I am beginning to accept this fact and realize that I need to put in effort every single day, because I am not going to do down defeated. It will never go away, but I'm not going to let it control my life.