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idk what is going on anymore
everything that makes me happy seems so far from me
everything that i've ever wanted feels like it's slipping away,
and no matter how hard i try to fix things, everything gets worse.
things with and nick are deteriating.
i miss feeling like it was possible for two people to love each other for forever.
i feel so distant from him and it just makes me want him in my life even more.
what do you do when everything you devote your life to, everything you wake up for in the morning, suddenly doesnt want you anymore?
i feel like everything in life is so unfair.
i feel like almost everything is against me.
i miss it so much.
i miss waking up in the morning and thinking yes, i cant wait to do my hair and do my best to look beautiful because today i am seing my boyfriend. i miss having things to look forward too. i feel like all i have to look forward to is working and school, because its all i ever do.
i miss being missed, and wanted constnatly. they say love fades with time, but mine just grew stronger. i dont understand how come
life works this way. why cant things just work out. i hope they work out. what else am i going to do? i dont want anyone else, reallly.
i think the best thing now is to give nick space.
thats all he wants, so might as well satisfy him,
even if it's hurting me.
i dont even know anymore, i'm not sure of anything.
nick's getting his wisdom teeth pulled out tomorrow, so i dotn think we'll do much talking.
i watched juno and alvin and the chipmunks today.
both very good movies.
i just want to be happy.
everything that makes me happy seems so far from me
everything that i've ever wanted feels like it's slipping away,
and no matter how hard i try to fix things, everything gets worse.
things with and nick are deteriating.
i miss feeling like it was possible for two people to love each other for forever.
i feel so distant from him and it just makes me want him in my life even more.
what do you do when everything you devote your life to, everything you wake up for in the morning, suddenly doesnt want you anymore?
i feel like everything in life is so unfair.
i feel like almost everything is against me.
i miss it so much.
i miss waking up in the morning and thinking yes, i cant wait to do my hair and do my best to look beautiful because today i am seing my boyfriend. i miss having things to look forward too. i feel like all i have to look forward to is working and school, because its all i ever do.
i miss being missed, and wanted constnatly. they say love fades with time, but mine just grew stronger. i dont understand how come
life works this way. why cant things just work out. i hope they work out. what else am i going to do? i dont want anyone else, reallly.
i think the best thing now is to give nick space.
thats all he wants, so might as well satisfy him,
even if it's hurting me.
i dont even know anymore, i'm not sure of anything.
nick's getting his wisdom teeth pulled out tomorrow, so i dotn think we'll do much talking.
i watched juno and alvin and the chipmunks today.
both very good movies.
i just want to be happy.