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me and nick are doing horrible.
i feel like i want to die, or just get away from everything.
i feel so unwanted, so used and pointless.
there isnt words to explain how upset i am right now.
i sacrificed my everything to spend two years with him, gave up all of my friends.
he doesnt appreciate it at all. our anniversary is in two weeks and he treats me like this?
he works all week and since i've seen him twice last week, he doesnt want to hang out with me today? i cant go there, and he wont ride his bike here, so i even got him rides here and back, and he cant fucking just come over? but insted he hangs out with his friends. im so emotionally attached to him and i feel like if i wasnt i would never ever let this bother me and i'd be done. why is love so fucking hard, why do i love someone who can treat me like thsi ? why.
i want my old life back , iwant someoen who loves me :(
im so sick of being depressed, so sick of it :(
i need someoens help.
i need someone to talk to
i just need to be wanted.
im sitting here on livejournal crying my eyes out just so i can get something out because theres no one to talk to and hes outside having fun with his friend.
why has everything come this far, why am i getting treated like this
why cant i just move on and forget this never happend.
i wish i knew the answers.
i wish i had friends :(
i wish i had someoens shoulder to cry on.
i wish i wasnt so fucking alone.
i wish....
i wish i could just sleep for a month or two, or forever.
i feel like i want to die, or just get away from everything.
i feel so unwanted, so used and pointless.
there isnt words to explain how upset i am right now.
i sacrificed my everything to spend two years with him, gave up all of my friends.
he doesnt appreciate it at all. our anniversary is in two weeks and he treats me like this?
he works all week and since i've seen him twice last week, he doesnt want to hang out with me today? i cant go there, and he wont ride his bike here, so i even got him rides here and back, and he cant fucking just come over? but insted he hangs out with his friends. im so emotionally attached to him and i feel like if i wasnt i would never ever let this bother me and i'd be done. why is love so fucking hard, why do i love someone who can treat me like thsi ? why.
i want my old life back , iwant someoen who loves me :(
im so sick of being depressed, so sick of it :(
i need someoens help.
i need someone to talk to
i just need to be wanted.
im sitting here on livejournal crying my eyes out just so i can get something out because theres no one to talk to and hes outside having fun with his friend.
why has everything come this far, why am i getting treated like this
why cant i just move on and forget this never happend.
i wish i knew the answers.
i wish i had friends :(
i wish i had someoens shoulder to cry on.
i wish i wasnt so fucking alone.
i wish....
i wish i could just sleep for a month or two, or forever.