*~one more chance~*
there is no reason for thinking about what to do anymore. its amazing how things become so great to have the taken away. the highs and lows don't bother me anymore. its only the highs i feel now. i can't feel lows or times that have a negative impact on me. for how i was and to have it happen wow theres two places you'll go. . .for you to decide that. the choice is so easy to make now. there are so many holes in what you have to say to me and i don't want to deal with them anymore after this. First, i haven't changed take a look at yourself and decide who was the one who ended it and who got the raw end of the deal. i cared enough to try but i guess why should i try to help if nobody helps me to try. its weird how you can look past peoples' disparities until you have gotten what you wanted. . .once that ends you become sick of them. thats how i am that won't change. i get sucked into things i shouldn't...this is an example. it was how i was but you didn't look to get to know me as i knew you. i listened, cared, helped, understood, and was in the end toooooo fucking nice. well what am i suppose to do? i stayed the same how i always was, you didn't even know what i would do in certain situations. thats how i am and no change from me there. Second, lying and leading me on when i tell you to bring things to my face. will i overreact when i am lied to? no i get pissed deal with it, try to find out why, if it was me, can see how it could be and hold it inside and still try. it doesn't work that way i guess. i won't let it happen to me anymore. I can't take lying and i won't have it anymore. Third, accepting you for you i tryed. i did for a while then for reasons beyond my logical understanding you gave me reasons to stop. i listened and helped you even if it wasn't to my benefit. i kept a open mind and now it has become closed and no turning back. think what you want. . .i would have been cool with friends even with what i went through and thats what you wanted but theres nothing i can do when i don't recieve the same input from you. can we still talk? hopefully you use your one chance wisely. Fourth, how can a reason be. . ."you were too nice." i cannot get that at all. i have no problem doing nice things. . .i don't expect anything in return. thats unfair? no its not if i don't expect anything in return. its not about getting something in return. seeing how you were was enough for me. if you felt bad about it why couldn't you tell me? is that what i said to do in the beginning? yes it was and i don't see how its that hard to do. i guess putting effort into things isn't right anymore. Finally, if i was told the truth it would have been so much easier and things wouldn't be like they are now. We were great friends (best friends) and shared everything. what changed it? you let me know what you think changed things. what everyone says i should have quit already but heres me being too nice again and giving you another chance. are you going to be freaked out by me being too nice this time or realize the opportunity that you have? I was your best friend and if you don't want to lose a friend i suggest you act on it or I wish you the best in what you do and in your future. I want to hear every viewpoint you have on what I said. The only thing that will change now is I hear what you have to say and finally (unlike how it was) I MAKE THE/A DECISION.