pretty exhausted
Im really exhausted from everything that has happened within the past few days. SATs could have gone better than expected. The people who proctored it did not do a very good job especially about keeping track of time. I arrived at UMES at 7:20am (because I am anal about time) hoping to be checked in early, but we were not allowed to check in until 7:45. Thankfully I wasnt the only college person retaking it. According to the "Important Information" from CollegeBoard we were suppose to finished testing between 12:30 and 1pm...we didnt get out until quarter to 2. I have no idea why they did not have the test booklets there already...they wasted a good hour waiting for ppl to arrive, passing out booklets, and reading directions. Im just happy its over with.
I had just enough time to go home and change before covering Dara's shift at work. I ended up leaving early because mother called to say that they had an extra seat for Gaby's Dance Recital. The first two hours were good... but there were so many people and performances! It turned into 5 hours of dancing. Gaby was cute, but she was all the way at the back of the stage which she had to share with 20 something other little girls. They couldve cut a lot of performances because it was the same people dancing over and over again. How I made it through sitting next to my stepdad and mother for 5 hours- I dont know. Heh. Didn't get home until about midnight and for some reason I couldnt go to sleep. I had been up since 5:30 am but did not finally go to sleep until about 2am. And I am still tired.
Sara's Baby Shower was today. I went with Dara and her mom. Megan, Jess, Janet, and Coralie were there too. It went really well and the day was perfect for it. Sara has gotten so round, but I wasn't to uncomfortable from the site of her belly. She offered to let me touch it if Abby (soon to be born baby) moved or kicked. Luckily for me that opportunity did not arrive. It was good to see everyone again, though.
Tomorrow I need to talk to someone from SU about my major. I am hoping to hear from Tavel soon about when we are meeting again. Support Group is tomorrow night also. I asked Angie to come with me but she is on vacation right now, so I am going to go by myself. I think it will be another thing to help me out with everything. There will be others there who understand what it feels like and what they have done to not let it bring them down. I am kind of excited but anxious at the same time. But I am not going to let the negative thoughts about everything fill my head. It is hard sometimes, though, because I want to remember the things that have made me so happy but they are connected with the things that have left me this way.
sigh.
I think I am going to clean some also. Room is really messy again. I mean, Ive not been home a lot lately. I just sleep and throw my clothes everywhere but it has reached the point where I need to straighten things up again.
Need to push myself more to look for a second job. The extra income would be wonderful. I will have to keep looking around...
I think that's it for now. Going to try and get some rest...
P&L
I had just enough time to go home and change before covering Dara's shift at work. I ended up leaving early because mother called to say that they had an extra seat for Gaby's Dance Recital. The first two hours were good... but there were so many people and performances! It turned into 5 hours of dancing. Gaby was cute, but she was all the way at the back of the stage which she had to share with 20 something other little girls. They couldve cut a lot of performances because it was the same people dancing over and over again. How I made it through sitting next to my stepdad and mother for 5 hours- I dont know. Heh. Didn't get home until about midnight and for some reason I couldnt go to sleep. I had been up since 5:30 am but did not finally go to sleep until about 2am. And I am still tired.
Sara's Baby Shower was today. I went with Dara and her mom. Megan, Jess, Janet, and Coralie were there too. It went really well and the day was perfect for it. Sara has gotten so round, but I wasn't to uncomfortable from the site of her belly. She offered to let me touch it if Abby (soon to be born baby) moved or kicked. Luckily for me that opportunity did not arrive. It was good to see everyone again, though.
Tomorrow I need to talk to someone from SU about my major. I am hoping to hear from Tavel soon about when we are meeting again. Support Group is tomorrow night also. I asked Angie to come with me but she is on vacation right now, so I am going to go by myself. I think it will be another thing to help me out with everything. There will be others there who understand what it feels like and what they have done to not let it bring them down. I am kind of excited but anxious at the same time. But I am not going to let the negative thoughts about everything fill my head. It is hard sometimes, though, because I want to remember the things that have made me so happy but they are connected with the things that have left me this way.
sigh.
I think I am going to clean some also. Room is really messy again. I mean, Ive not been home a lot lately. I just sleep and throw my clothes everywhere but it has reached the point where I need to straighten things up again.
Need to push myself more to look for a second job. The extra income would be wonderful. I will have to keep looking around...
I think that's it for now. Going to try and get some rest...
P&L