May 02, 2009 11:12
Why is it that I did not like Dave Matthews before now? sigh.... It's what love does to you. I dont feel like finishing my take home exam right now. Have to work in a few hours and maybe, hopefully go to the movies afterwards. This baked ziti is burnt...
I really dont know what to write right now. Ive grown so tired of writing the same things about him, knowing all too well my questions will never be answered, that I have nothing left to ponder on. Actually... Ive been rethinking things about school and such. I am not exactly sure if culinary school is right for me. I really have no experience as opposed to the other students who may be more passionate about food than I am. Now I dont know what to do with my life. The Stefanie that wanted to learn to make pastries and such was his Stefanie. That Stefanie had to leave along with everything dealing with him. Now I am left with a Stefanie that is unsure of what she should do now. I sent an email to the Art Institute, but they have yet to respond. Maybe I will just be stuck going to SU, majoring in what? No idea...
Im back to eating more than once a day... I told him he was the reason that I stopped eating... hes upset that I called him an alcoholic. I apologized, but now he knows how I feel when he said that I needed to go make friends and to go see a counselor...Hes not the person I believed he was...
I dont feel like writing anymore...