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Yawn - I am so tired :( couldn't settle last night cos I'd been upset and was therefore all bunged up and had things going on in my head. It then rained very heavily which also kept me awake - :( I am exhausted as a result and today hasn't really started yet. I've missed my train and so sitting on the platform waiting for the next one - hope it is here soon.
And I know I wasn't with matt long but it was first person in over 3 years and I had just got head round someone wanting to be with me and accepted that whoich I think made it worse. He was first person who accepted me for me. - didn't have to be anyone I wasn't or hide bits of myself. But I don't suppose that matters anymore as I'm back to how it was - enjoyed it while it lasted but thought it would last longer.
Not much happening in other news bar work which is awful - and am so tired today I honestly don't know how I will make it through to the end of the day :( I am on counter till 12 then a meeting with court manager at half twelve as a back to work interview cos I was ill before my annual leave. Then pm at my desk an answering the phones. I am not looking forward to day as I am so far behind with being off it is very overwhealming and boss is treating me like I'm 2 - maybe I should act it - have a paddy- rip up the work?
Still no sign of my train and it should be here now - what a pain :( not announced cancelled so hopefcully be here soon - normally gets here ten minutes ago. And typically happens on the day I need to go to Tesco on my way as I have. No squash at work and have not made butties so will look at those too.
I'm so waffling now - oops- sorry about the moan and feeling crappneSs :(
And I know I wasn't with matt long but it was first person in over 3 years and I had just got head round someone wanting to be with me and accepted that whoich I think made it worse. He was first person who accepted me for me. - didn't have to be anyone I wasn't or hide bits of myself. But I don't suppose that matters anymore as I'm back to how it was - enjoyed it while it lasted but thought it would last longer.
Not much happening in other news bar work which is awful - and am so tired today I honestly don't know how I will make it through to the end of the day :( I am on counter till 12 then a meeting with court manager at half twelve as a back to work interview cos I was ill before my annual leave. Then pm at my desk an answering the phones. I am not looking forward to day as I am so far behind with being off it is very overwhealming and boss is treating me like I'm 2 - maybe I should act it - have a paddy- rip up the work?
Still no sign of my train and it should be here now - what a pain :( not announced cancelled so hopefcully be here soon - normally gets here ten minutes ago. And typically happens on the day I need to go to Tesco on my way as I have. No squash at work and have not made butties so will look at those too.
I'm so waffling now - oops- sorry about the moan and feeling crappneSs :(