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I've decided I should update more often.
I had a good weekend, on Saturday Sara and i went to svsu to see glp perform, which was awesome. went to dinner with carlee zac megan sara and brian, i miss seeing everyone so it was really nice to be able to just hang out. Then we went to a mall and I bought stuff I didnt need... (ponders about carlees last update)... anyway, and the rest of the weekend I spent with matt. He is the greatest guy. girls are complicated, girls are emotional, girls are confusing. I am a girl. No matter how stupid the thing that i am upset about is (although at the moment, it is not stupid to me, it is always an immediate horrible emotional emergency) he never makes me feel stupid, or feel like i am making a big deal out of nothing, even if i am. because he knows that in that moment, it is not nothing and there is nothing that will change my mind at that point. "If it weren't for girls, there wouldn't BE any big deals. guys would just grab a beer and be over it."
I had a dream 2 nights ago that I was on my way to work, but i wasnt wearing the right clothes, i think i was wearing jeans, so i had to buy some right before work. in my dream, the store that is actually deb in the mall was a Mervyn's plus size store. and i had to go buy my clothes there, and then a bunch of people i work with came in and were looking at me like 'oh my god she is so fat she has to shop here' and im trying to explain to them, no, they have regular sizes too! look, i have a size 12 in my hand! but they werent listening, or just didn't believe me, and i woke up trying to convince them that i wasn't fat! it was traumatizing. i need to lose weight.
I don't work again until friday. i am happy about that because i really need to concentrate on school right now. 3 weeks left, and i have no motivation in me. i need to kick myself in the ass for 3 fucking weeks and get it done. just do it.
hopefully i can sleep tonight.
I had a good weekend, on Saturday Sara and i went to svsu to see glp perform, which was awesome. went to dinner with carlee zac megan sara and brian, i miss seeing everyone so it was really nice to be able to just hang out. Then we went to a mall and I bought stuff I didnt need... (ponders about carlees last update)... anyway, and the rest of the weekend I spent with matt. He is the greatest guy. girls are complicated, girls are emotional, girls are confusing. I am a girl. No matter how stupid the thing that i am upset about is (although at the moment, it is not stupid to me, it is always an immediate horrible emotional emergency) he never makes me feel stupid, or feel like i am making a big deal out of nothing, even if i am. because he knows that in that moment, it is not nothing and there is nothing that will change my mind at that point. "If it weren't for girls, there wouldn't BE any big deals. guys would just grab a beer and be over it."
I had a dream 2 nights ago that I was on my way to work, but i wasnt wearing the right clothes, i think i was wearing jeans, so i had to buy some right before work. in my dream, the store that is actually deb in the mall was a Mervyn's plus size store. and i had to go buy my clothes there, and then a bunch of people i work with came in and were looking at me like 'oh my god she is so fat she has to shop here' and im trying to explain to them, no, they have regular sizes too! look, i have a size 12 in my hand! but they werent listening, or just didn't believe me, and i woke up trying to convince them that i wasn't fat! it was traumatizing. i need to lose weight.
I don't work again until friday. i am happy about that because i really need to concentrate on school right now. 3 weeks left, and i have no motivation in me. i need to kick myself in the ass for 3 fucking weeks and get it done. just do it.
hopefully i can sleep tonight.