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I don't know what to do. I want to move on soooo bad, but every time I try... I just can't. I hate you so much, but I love you. And I know I don't need to be with you, but I want to. I want things to go back the way they used to be when we first started dating. But that's never going to happen, and I need to get that through my head. I'm just so tired of being depressed about you. You wanted me before because I helped you through hard times and was always there to make you smile. Now, you'd rather go to parties all the time and hang out with other girls. I really wish I could say that was the best time of my life, but it wasn't. You fell out of love with me months ago, so why couldn't you just break up with me then? Why couldn't you just tell me all this before I decided to go to college with you? Why did you have to promise me marriage, children, and a life full of happiness if you can't fulfill that promise? I know I messed up, but lately... I keep finding things you messed up. I can't wait to leave this school. I want to move away, far away from you. I will ask you one more time, and then... I'm gone.
I went to the bridge yesterday.
I went to the bridge yesterday.