the powers of an evil dr rocket science monster with capabilities to destroy the entire universe...
I thought it was "the abilities" but its "capabilities".
Damn him for being right.
Lately I feel like all I've been doing is pissing people off.
Or getting in their way. And its really starting to piss me off.
I wish I could be someone else for awhile.
Someone who doesn't know anyone that I know.
I'm sad I think my blue converse are splitting apart.
I wore orange socks all day. Maybe that's why I had a kinda crappy day.
Orange is a very violent color.
I think I want to chop off all my hair.
Does that sound good? After prom. Maybe I'll chop it all off.
But I like the color still I think.
I dunno. Anyway I do my hair it'll just remind me of someone else unless I leave it how it is.
I felt to accomplished today.
I definitely took my pictures for photography last night.
Developed them during class--the first time I ever finished before the bell rang.
And I used the metal reels.
And I read Catcher in the Rye while processing film.
Then I put my negatives in the dryer at 2:10.
Then I went to drum major stuff for a few minutes.
Then I went and worked on my prints.
I tried using filters on it.
Cause she always fucking says to use filters.
But I don't like them, they make things worse, not better.
Like it was a little too dark in the foreground and really bright in the middle and then dark again. But thats what I get for taking a picture inside a box.
So I tried using a 1 filter to tone it down, but then it just looked shitty.
So I just took the filter off. Fuck that shit. lmao.
My pictures have enough contrast in them damnit!
Anyway. So I got the print that I wanted.
And I did my contact sheet.
And the janitor definitely came in and cleaned and left and locked the door and didn't know I was there.
It was sweet.
I just had to make sure I got in first.
Today I learned what it means to "dome" someone.
Anth was playing Halo and I was watching.
Its like the new word for "headshot".
*shrugs*
Me and Vince watched some story about Rosie leaving the View like 8 times cause they wouldn't shut up about it.
She's so ugly.
Something just hasn't seemed right lately.
Its like my brain just doesn't want to work anymore.
There's so many things that I have to do.
And I never do them.
And it won't even get better when school ends.
No wonder I forget things so much.
Whatever. Its a phenomenon that I can:
A) Spell phenomenon and B) Can remember my own damn name. Jesus.
I like catcher in the rye.
And I like livejournal for listening to me since I don't talk to people anymore.
I mean, I do. But I feel like I don't know anyone anymore. Like I'm not close with people.
Omg, for prom tables... I didn't even know who I'd sit with.
If I had to pick, I would pick me and Lanzio and then have no idea.
I don't hang out with people anymore.
I might pick lauren too, because she's always nice.
And I might pick creepy just because he gives good hugs.
But Lanzio doesn't like him.
I think I didn't like senior year.
But I haven't decided.
Well, maybe I liked it. I mean it wasn't necessarily bad.
It just wasn't as good as I thought it would be.
And I have a feeling that this summer isn't going to be that good either.
It seems like everyone's too busy for life.
The other day I almost hit a squirrel, and then I almost hit something else too.
I screamed. And slammed on my breaks and didn't hit anything, but it was scary.
Ever since that one day when I saw that guy hit the skunk. And I cried it was so sad.
My oma came over today because she was supposed to take a look at my prom dress and see how it fits.
Actually, I think I'm gonna go do that.
Anyway, she was supposed to come over and look at it, and she did but I wasn't here cause my mom didn't tell her I had drum major stuff.
She left me a note that sounds like it could be very annoyed.
I emphasize 'could' because there's nothing that suggests that unless you know her.
P.S. her and my dad are fighting again. Or more like, she said something dumb and he yelled at her and she got mad at him again.
Jack is still outside. I should go get him since my parents won't be home at the normal time since they're going to Lowes to look at counter tops.
They're not dedicating our theatre anymore. Nubcakes. Nappy Headed Hoes.
I said that like 8 times yesterday.
Lanzio was working so I called Nick Labelle instead. I like Nick Labelle.
On Senior skip day I think I might not go to Cedar Point.
Anthony says he'll probably skip too. And so will Vince.
Then we can play dodge ball in the Ferro basement.
And then we can go see Pirates at midnight.
And I can dress up like Tia Dalma since Anth called Jack and he wants me to be nig but then at least I can slap him.
Do you think Prom is going to be as good as everyone says it is?
I'm not gonna lie sometimes I wish people actually danced at dances.
There's only so long that I can "bump" and "grind" without feeling retarded.
That's not dancing! Whatever.
*sigh* Prom. I want to wait for tickets early in the morning on saturday before I go away for the Wanderfest.... somewhere I don't even know where it is.
I'm supposed to compete. I dunno who with though. I haven't practiced in so long. Whatev.
I was hoping waiting for prom tickets would be as fun as waiting for the wii, but somehow I don't think it will be.
But then again that was really really fun.
*sigh* I kinda wish I had taken a nap, but I felt like writing all this.
Did you know that the Northern Lights are actually electrons from sun flares that are deflected by the earth's magnetic field?
I do. And I thought you should know cause I always wondered.
I should've gotten gas, but I didn't even feel like it today.
Sometimes I wonder what things would be like if other things had been different.
That reminds me of Back to the Future.
Which reminds me.
I have to return:
-Vince and Anthony's DVD player
-Pete & Pete
-Some books I have from people
-Jeremy's hat
I have to get back:
-My flash drive
-Some books I lent to people
I have to:
-get a job
-study math AP test
-read catcher in the rye
-finish that career thing
-deny the colleges I'm not going to
-there's other stuff I'm sure I don't remember
I really think my brain is just... abandoning me.
Today during band I just sat and helped Anthony with math.
Which is probably good. Because it helps me remember stuff.
Slope fields. Eww.
There was more stuff I wanted to talk about.
I don't really remember it though.
I like hugs.
I mean I know everyone does.
But I realized today that I kind of just wanted to hug people.
I saw some girl walking with some guy in the hallway and I wanted to hug her.
I hate when people do that.
When I'm crying I don't even want people to look at me.
Let alone ask me, "what's wrong?"
Let alone hug me.
Being locked in the art room was cool.
Damn him for being right.
Lately I feel like all I've been doing is pissing people off.
Or getting in their way. And its really starting to piss me off.
I wish I could be someone else for awhile.
Someone who doesn't know anyone that I know.
I'm sad I think my blue converse are splitting apart.
I wore orange socks all day. Maybe that's why I had a kinda crappy day.
Orange is a very violent color.
I think I want to chop off all my hair.
Does that sound good? After prom. Maybe I'll chop it all off.
But I like the color still I think.
I dunno. Anyway I do my hair it'll just remind me of someone else unless I leave it how it is.
I felt to accomplished today.
I definitely took my pictures for photography last night.
Developed them during class--the first time I ever finished before the bell rang.
And I used the metal reels.
And I read Catcher in the Rye while processing film.
Then I put my negatives in the dryer at 2:10.
Then I went to drum major stuff for a few minutes.
Then I went and worked on my prints.
I tried using filters on it.
Cause she always fucking says to use filters.
But I don't like them, they make things worse, not better.
Like it was a little too dark in the foreground and really bright in the middle and then dark again. But thats what I get for taking a picture inside a box.
So I tried using a 1 filter to tone it down, but then it just looked shitty.
So I just took the filter off. Fuck that shit. lmao.
My pictures have enough contrast in them damnit!
Anyway. So I got the print that I wanted.
And I did my contact sheet.
And the janitor definitely came in and cleaned and left and locked the door and didn't know I was there.
It was sweet.
I just had to make sure I got in first.
Today I learned what it means to "dome" someone.
Anth was playing Halo and I was watching.
Its like the new word for "headshot".
*shrugs*
Me and Vince watched some story about Rosie leaving the View like 8 times cause they wouldn't shut up about it.
She's so ugly.
Something just hasn't seemed right lately.
Its like my brain just doesn't want to work anymore.
There's so many things that I have to do.
And I never do them.
And it won't even get better when school ends.
No wonder I forget things so much.
Whatever. Its a phenomenon that I can:
A) Spell phenomenon and B) Can remember my own damn name. Jesus.
I like catcher in the rye.
And I like livejournal for listening to me since I don't talk to people anymore.
I mean, I do. But I feel like I don't know anyone anymore. Like I'm not close with people.
Omg, for prom tables... I didn't even know who I'd sit with.
If I had to pick, I would pick me and Lanzio and then have no idea.
I don't hang out with people anymore.
I might pick lauren too, because she's always nice.
And I might pick creepy just because he gives good hugs.
But Lanzio doesn't like him.
I think I didn't like senior year.
But I haven't decided.
Well, maybe I liked it. I mean it wasn't necessarily bad.
It just wasn't as good as I thought it would be.
And I have a feeling that this summer isn't going to be that good either.
It seems like everyone's too busy for life.
The other day I almost hit a squirrel, and then I almost hit something else too.
I screamed. And slammed on my breaks and didn't hit anything, but it was scary.
Ever since that one day when I saw that guy hit the skunk. And I cried it was so sad.
My oma came over today because she was supposed to take a look at my prom dress and see how it fits.
Actually, I think I'm gonna go do that.
Anyway, she was supposed to come over and look at it, and she did but I wasn't here cause my mom didn't tell her I had drum major stuff.
She left me a note that sounds like it could be very annoyed.
I emphasize 'could' because there's nothing that suggests that unless you know her.
P.S. her and my dad are fighting again. Or more like, she said something dumb and he yelled at her and she got mad at him again.
Jack is still outside. I should go get him since my parents won't be home at the normal time since they're going to Lowes to look at counter tops.
They're not dedicating our theatre anymore. Nubcakes. Nappy Headed Hoes.
I said that like 8 times yesterday.
Lanzio was working so I called Nick Labelle instead. I like Nick Labelle.
On Senior skip day I think I might not go to Cedar Point.
Anthony says he'll probably skip too. And so will Vince.
Then we can play dodge ball in the Ferro basement.
And then we can go see Pirates at midnight.
And I can dress up like Tia Dalma since Anth called Jack and he wants me to be nig but then at least I can slap him.
Do you think Prom is going to be as good as everyone says it is?
I'm not gonna lie sometimes I wish people actually danced at dances.
There's only so long that I can "bump" and "grind" without feeling retarded.
That's not dancing! Whatever.
*sigh* Prom. I want to wait for tickets early in the morning on saturday before I go away for the Wanderfest.... somewhere I don't even know where it is.
I'm supposed to compete. I dunno who with though. I haven't practiced in so long. Whatev.
I was hoping waiting for prom tickets would be as fun as waiting for the wii, but somehow I don't think it will be.
But then again that was really really fun.
*sigh* I kinda wish I had taken a nap, but I felt like writing all this.
Did you know that the Northern Lights are actually electrons from sun flares that are deflected by the earth's magnetic field?
I do. And I thought you should know cause I always wondered.
I should've gotten gas, but I didn't even feel like it today.
Sometimes I wonder what things would be like if other things had been different.
That reminds me of Back to the Future.
Which reminds me.
I have to return:
-Vince and Anthony's DVD player
-Pete & Pete
-Some books I have from people
-Jeremy's hat
I have to get back:
-My flash drive
-Some books I lent to people
I have to:
-get a job
-study math AP test
-read catcher in the rye
-finish that career thing
-deny the colleges I'm not going to
-there's other stuff I'm sure I don't remember
I really think my brain is just... abandoning me.
Today during band I just sat and helped Anthony with math.
Which is probably good. Because it helps me remember stuff.
Slope fields. Eww.
There was more stuff I wanted to talk about.
I don't really remember it though.
I like hugs.
I mean I know everyone does.
But I realized today that I kind of just wanted to hug people.
I saw some girl walking with some guy in the hallway and I wanted to hug her.
I hate when people do that.
When I'm crying I don't even want people to look at me.
Let alone ask me, "what's wrong?"
Let alone hug me.
Being locked in the art room was cool.