40 ⁂ goodbye, halcyon days (reunion remix)

[weaver_girl]

I just wanted to say - thank you so much, everyone. I'm so very grateful to have known you all.

I don't quite know how to put this, but it looks like my world - our world - is on the brink of a war. My friends are in danger. I didn't really know how bad the situation was until just now

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[pompous_today]

I love you, meimei.

[Simon realizes he's never said that before, but now seems as good a time as any.]

I still- I don't know if I want to go back with you or not. Because I remember everything, too. And I'm- I'm not a fugitive back where I came from any longer. Kaylee- Serenity- she's waiting for me, too.

[weaver_girl]

And I love you. Very much.

I'll miss you something fierce, but--we both have people waiting for us. My best friend, Tatsuki, and Sado-kun--or Kind, when he was here--and Ishida-kun, and all my classmates.

You know we'll see each other again, right?

[pompous_today]

We do, yes. I have more than I thought I did.

But can you be sure that will happen?

[weaver_girl]

Then you should go to them. As long as we can find our way back here, we can always meet again.

No. Not completely. But I have good friends beside me, and I can't very well leave things unfinished at home, hm?

[pompous_today]

[A few teardrops dot the page, and Simon takes several minutes to compose himself.]

No, you cannot.

I just [Another pause.] I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm having to choose between the family that gave me more love than my real parents truly did and the woman I love. If I pick one, I very well may not be able to go back to the other.

If your world is at war, though... perhaps it is best I go back to my own.

[weaver_girl]

I understand. I think.

But I don't think right now would be a good time to come with us. All of us remember a battle. None of us know how it ends. That must mean--

I think we have to try to go back to the time we left from. I'm not sure. I haven't talked to everyone yet.

It's still your home, Simon. And Kaylee's there, right?

[pompous_today]

Yes. It sounds like a bad time to try to acclimate to a world where I do not exist yet. Because I was born in the year 2490- far into the future.

[Simon pauses again, having not fully realized before writing that that, hey, HE DOESN'T EXIST IN THEIR WORLD, so how is he going to find a job and support Qi?]

It is my home- even if I spent almost a year on the run from the law.

She is, but [Another long pause. He was about to write "She'd get over me" but that sounds incredibly mean and dismissive- and he's not sure he'd want to do that to her.]

I guess I'll just have to hope I can see all of you again.

[weaver_girl]

[Whoops. Yeah. Seeing that year spelled out really drives it home.]

If you really wanted to come with us, well. There's Urahara-san, and he could probably arrange something, and there's the Kurosaki Clinic, but.

If that's the same way of counting years, you're five hundred years into the future from us. That's rather a lot.

You will, Simon.

[pompous_today]

Yes, that is a long way away- the year I was in was 2517. It is a complication it sounds like none of you need right now.

[A frustrated scribble.]

But there is no guarantee of that. [He quickly crosses that out. He's trying not to be pessimistic, dangit.]

I hope so.

[weaver_girl]

I really don't want to leave you behind. That's what it feels like, even when I know it's for the best.

[pompous_today]

[All the tears, Kage, HAVE THEM]

It feels terribly ungrateful of me to just- say "I'm leaving you, goodbye, we may never see each other again".

[weaver_girl]

But it's not ungrateful! We've always known we're from different worlds. It's--it's sad, yes, very much so, but it doesn't make anyone a bad person to want or have to leave.

-- Where are you now?

[pompous_today]

At my house. It is in the same area as before, just in the Wilderness now.

quicklog or just--

[weaver_girl]

[Kagerou flying in the door to cling to Simon forever, because goddamnit tears that won't stop? I know I want one more log/thread with you, but this one might just be a lot of bawww? So we can also handwave.]

I'll be there. I think--

I'll be there.

quicklog!

[weaver_girl]

[It takes Kagerou some time to locate the house, familiar as it is. She knocks with a bit too much force, and the moment that Simon opens the door, she stumbles inside to hug him. This is already the second painful meeting of a loved one she might have to leave today, but staying away would be even worse.

So she clings to her adoptive brother and tries, though words won't come, to silently reassure him that this parting will not be for good.]

quicklog!

[pompous_today]

[Simon doesn't bother to try and stop his tears even before Kagerou arrives, and when he opens the door, he holds her back as tightly as she is hugging him.

He can't say anything for a while, not even a murmured "it's okay", because it most certainly is NOT okay. He knew this day was likely to come eventually, that she would either disappear, or they'd find a way to break the cycle and escape the Sphere, but he could keep believing that it would be a long way away- years. Now it's here, they have to say goodbye, Simon can feel it in his heart. He feels hysterical and can only force himself to calm down so much before he can speak.]

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. How am I going to survive without all of you with me?