Scared of tomorrow, thanks to a stupid phone phobia :-(

[weatherwitch101]

3.50am & I'm awake edgy over my Social Services & Direct Payments meeting tomorrow. Direct Payments have called out my Care Manager because I've not been sending in my paperwork :-( Or answering the phone. Or ringing them back.Actually I've Never sent in my paperwork, I have Always had home visits for 8/9 years but they changed it In March to postal. And my agoraphobia means I have terrible problems using the phone. So I don't use it until I'm forced to. And 'forced' can be a desperate situation weeks later :-( Thing is once there's a problem with the paperwork (I Know it's wrong!) then I get stressed. So I've even less chance of being able to telephone than before. Email is mostly down (nothing now since Saturday morning so it's jammed again until the weekend WiFi access if I'm lucky). As I can't ring them then when there's agency problems that they should help with (late calls, no outings etc) then I can't tell them & this previously got caught at Home Visits.
I am Not looking forward to tomorrow, their threatening letter that they may stop payments doesn't help then it says let us know how we can support you best. I've got an idea, Bloody Return It To HOME VISITS again!! And restore the apparently missing notes in my files about the inability to ring/answer/take or make calls. I fear Social Services, I know Direct Payments have only supported once. This makes it even harder :-(