Still poorly, worn out, crap, dire, shite..
Really poorly yet again. I think the worst of this is caused by it being Christmas. For eleven of the twelve months there is flip all different or special to see (or lets state is wheelchair accessible) so at this time of year it's big craft fairs or great displays at the garden centres. I don't do Christmas (it's the Solstice for me) but I love the baubles & ornaments & looking at them (generally thinking I could do better than that!). Anyway so if I don't get to these different displays then it literally is it for another 11 months. And so I made it to the garden centre at Stokesley. But I do wish I hadn't :-(
They have struggled there generally for food for me, but came up with blitzing the tuna with mayo for me (sandwich filling really with no bread, salad etc) for my pureed meal. Trouble was by the time it arrived I felt too rough to eat so they very kindly provided a pot so I could take it home for later.
I wasn't feeling exactly grand when I left to go out anyway but couldn't take the thought of yet again going to the local garden centre. I mean I like it but thats pretty much a fixture of the few places the care agency Do take me too.
Anyway feeling awful but wanting at least a tiny look around especially as I still needed gifts for my carers (my mother makes me get them bits-I'm 41 ffs!) I realised I was Really struggling to control the powerchair, not the chair playing up this time but my being unwell, neuropathy playing up & my spatial awareness having taken a holiday when I really needed it. So put the chair down to just above minimum (about 1mph) & trundled about. But then I was absolutely Worn out with the intense concentration of controlling the chair & when I got home I went straight to bed & slept nearly 4 hours. Parents still here when I woke (luckily they fought Baccy with his meds) & I had a soup. The tuna remained quite chilled so can snack on that tomorrow as all I had today was pureed chicken casserole for brunch then the soup around 10pm.
Am tired so damn tired but not the kind helped by sleep