i have wonderful friends
i came out to my best friend last night. granted, i was really, REALLY drunk and i don't remember why i decided to do it in a crowded mexican restaurant, but i did and that's that. and you know, i knew the entire time before that she was going to be okay with it. i really did know. but i was so terrified and so worried and i wasn't ready to unpack the past three years of my sexuality because it's been a very internalized process for me. "you were made perfect," is what she said to me and i cried for a long time because i just felt all of this love and acceptance coming from her and it felt good to hear someone say something like that to me.
i think this week i'm going to see a therapist here on campus. therapy's always sort of been a dirty word in my family. my mom used to say that i didn't need a therapist, i have her. but i can't really talk to her about the important things. so i want to do that. it feels good to just be able to talk to someone.
anyway, i promise i'll eventually let up with the ridiculously emotionally heavy posts. this is just a perfect outlet for me and i love all of you. <3
i think this week i'm going to see a therapist here on campus. therapy's always sort of been a dirty word in my family. my mom used to say that i didn't need a therapist, i have her. but i can't really talk to her about the important things. so i want to do that. it feels good to just be able to talk to someone.
anyway, i promise i'll eventually let up with the ridiculously emotionally heavy posts. this is just a perfect outlet for me and i love all of you. <3