A Huge Rant
I hate my situation right now.
Let me explain. First the living situation with my mother in law hasent improved much. It really depends on the day, and how the stars aline themselves the night before. Since Dragon*con things have been kinda shakey. Thats putting it nicely. Still there are good days, they just dont seem to be good enough right now to make up for all the other crap.
School has been a blessing and a hell lately. My Education of Exceptional Students... I still havent figured out how to take that class. My writing class which I've been dreading and avoiding all these years has turned out to be a blessing. Im glad I waited, the new teacher I have is amazing. I feel Im learning alot that will help me ultimately in the classroom as a teacher. Then theres my Computer class. It seriously is like pulling teeth every time I sit through it. We seriously spent an entire class going over what an excel spredsheet was, not what its capable of, but simply how to locate a cell and type information in it. I worry about the html part that were supposidly going to get to, because I really never had to deal with it before. Really im worried about failing it, because i cant keep my eyes open either.
Work hasent been that great either. This time last year I was averaging 35-40 hrs. This year, I'm sturggling to get 28. Why you ask? Well theres been a change of managment, that didnt help. Oh and the owner dosent want to see part timers getting more then 32 hrs at any given time. Oh and we also keep hiring people. I understand why, but its killing me. Paying for a wedding, and school is not helping. Thank god Matt has a job again.
Thats another point of contention though. Matt has a job again, but with it, hes having to drive an 1.5 each way. So hes leaving at 7, to get home at 7. So im home with dearest mother-in-law asking me this and that about Matt. I dont have all the answers at any given time, yet im expected to. My schedule sucks as it is. To have Matts suck worse then mine hasent helped our relationship. I cant be myself in the house, not without offending my mother-in-law. To top it off, Im being asked to playcate her. I get it, shes needs help, but im not her babysitter. It be one thing if she was completely helpless, but shes not. Just enough to get projects going and then leave everything else to the guys.
Im still bitter about Dragon*Con. I get it, their family, or will be soon enough. Still, we bust our asses, we take turns in the booth yet we're the bad guys. Im sorry if I don't consider your smoke breaks a break when there anywhere from 30mins to 45 mins long and you get on average 5 a day. Wake up and smell the shit on your shoes, thats not how buissness work. Your allowed a break, but in corporate america, you can have about 3. Oh and lets not forget your staff is doing this crap for free, has taken off work to do this, so really is loosing money. Yet, because I tried to enjoy myself this year, im the bad person. Im sorry for not kissing everyones ass when you wanted me too, I've had enough of that in my short life already. Yet im not allowed to say that.. yet another point of contention
We've dubbed it the 'powdered butt syndrom'. Its kinda self explanitory. Simply person A is twice the age of person B, so obviously they know more about life, religion, sickness, buissness, and anything else that person B might potentially be lacking. This does not take into account that despite being twice as old as person B, the amount of years spent working is the same. Its simply, im older so i know better.
I have been trying. Ive also tried to keep my mouth trap about complaining to Matt, theres nothing either of us can do. We cant move out, not really without putting a huge strain on what income we have. And frankly, the way Matts talking, I dont want him at this company for more then 6 months. Any company that has to ask you to dumb yourself down to be understood isent worth working at, at least not in my opinion.
Im also struggling with deciding on what to do this summer. If work keeps screwing with my hours the answer will be decided for me cause otherwise I wont be able to afford school. Still, I have just enough time to manage a Film minor, the question really is it worth my time and money now? will there be a long term benefit? Im also considering applying to a competitive study abroad program to S. Korea for 8 weeks. Only 10 students are admitted. I doudt my chances of getting it, but it couldent hurt to apply. What would hurt is leaving Matt that long.
Keep all this with a grain of salt. Im fighting off a cold, and seriously would drop my computer class this moment if I wasent worried about insurence. Damn it all to hell.
Let me explain. First the living situation with my mother in law hasent improved much. It really depends on the day, and how the stars aline themselves the night before. Since Dragon*con things have been kinda shakey. Thats putting it nicely. Still there are good days, they just dont seem to be good enough right now to make up for all the other crap.
School has been a blessing and a hell lately. My Education of Exceptional Students... I still havent figured out how to take that class. My writing class which I've been dreading and avoiding all these years has turned out to be a blessing. Im glad I waited, the new teacher I have is amazing. I feel Im learning alot that will help me ultimately in the classroom as a teacher. Then theres my Computer class. It seriously is like pulling teeth every time I sit through it. We seriously spent an entire class going over what an excel spredsheet was, not what its capable of, but simply how to locate a cell and type information in it. I worry about the html part that were supposidly going to get to, because I really never had to deal with it before. Really im worried about failing it, because i cant keep my eyes open either.
Work hasent been that great either. This time last year I was averaging 35-40 hrs. This year, I'm sturggling to get 28. Why you ask? Well theres been a change of managment, that didnt help. Oh and the owner dosent want to see part timers getting more then 32 hrs at any given time. Oh and we also keep hiring people. I understand why, but its killing me. Paying for a wedding, and school is not helping. Thank god Matt has a job again.
Thats another point of contention though. Matt has a job again, but with it, hes having to drive an 1.5 each way. So hes leaving at 7, to get home at 7. So im home with dearest mother-in-law asking me this and that about Matt. I dont have all the answers at any given time, yet im expected to. My schedule sucks as it is. To have Matts suck worse then mine hasent helped our relationship. I cant be myself in the house, not without offending my mother-in-law. To top it off, Im being asked to playcate her. I get it, shes needs help, but im not her babysitter. It be one thing if she was completely helpless, but shes not. Just enough to get projects going and then leave everything else to the guys.
Im still bitter about Dragon*Con. I get it, their family, or will be soon enough. Still, we bust our asses, we take turns in the booth yet we're the bad guys. Im sorry if I don't consider your smoke breaks a break when there anywhere from 30mins to 45 mins long and you get on average 5 a day. Wake up and smell the shit on your shoes, thats not how buissness work. Your allowed a break, but in corporate america, you can have about 3. Oh and lets not forget your staff is doing this crap for free, has taken off work to do this, so really is loosing money. Yet, because I tried to enjoy myself this year, im the bad person. Im sorry for not kissing everyones ass when you wanted me too, I've had enough of that in my short life already. Yet im not allowed to say that.. yet another point of contention
We've dubbed it the 'powdered butt syndrom'. Its kinda self explanitory. Simply person A is twice the age of person B, so obviously they know more about life, religion, sickness, buissness, and anything else that person B might potentially be lacking. This does not take into account that despite being twice as old as person B, the amount of years spent working is the same. Its simply, im older so i know better.
I have been trying. Ive also tried to keep my mouth trap about complaining to Matt, theres nothing either of us can do. We cant move out, not really without putting a huge strain on what income we have. And frankly, the way Matts talking, I dont want him at this company for more then 6 months. Any company that has to ask you to dumb yourself down to be understood isent worth working at, at least not in my opinion.
Im also struggling with deciding on what to do this summer. If work keeps screwing with my hours the answer will be decided for me cause otherwise I wont be able to afford school. Still, I have just enough time to manage a Film minor, the question really is it worth my time and money now? will there be a long term benefit? Im also considering applying to a competitive study abroad program to S. Korea for 8 weeks. Only 10 students are admitted. I doudt my chances of getting it, but it couldent hurt to apply. What would hurt is leaving Matt that long.
Keep all this with a grain of salt. Im fighting off a cold, and seriously would drop my computer class this moment if I wasent worried about insurence. Damn it all to hell.