I have lost my voice.
Not my literal voice, but definitely my creative/writing voice.
I think it's because I'm too dang busy with kid-stuff. Soccer, dance, track, band, school play, Sunday school, bazzillion fundraisers, etc., etc., etc.
I MISS my own head-space. I miss writing fanfic. I miss trying to write on my original stuff.
But whenever I have a few minutes peace and quiet - I see the 'stuff' around the house that needs to be done in our rare moments of down time. Laundry. Cleaning. Camper that must be winterized asap.
And none of my favourite characters are speaking inside my head anymore. Or at least, not in voices insistent enough to transfer themselves to the page. I have outlines. Explicit, detailed notes going from point A to point B on the stuff I've been working on.
Even that scaffolding isn't supporting me right now.
I wouldn't give up a DROP of this 'kid time' for anything in the world. They're growing up so fast - I have only four "for sure" years left with my oldest boy. I gave up a lot of my fandom and online "junk" so I could have more time with the kids and less time away from addictive online time-wasters.
But sometimes, I really miss just living in another character's being for a little while.
Ah, well. This too shall pass.
I think it's because I'm too dang busy with kid-stuff. Soccer, dance, track, band, school play, Sunday school, bazzillion fundraisers, etc., etc., etc.
I MISS my own head-space. I miss writing fanfic. I miss trying to write on my original stuff.
But whenever I have a few minutes peace and quiet - I see the 'stuff' around the house that needs to be done in our rare moments of down time. Laundry. Cleaning. Camper that must be winterized asap.
And none of my favourite characters are speaking inside my head anymore. Or at least, not in voices insistent enough to transfer themselves to the page. I have outlines. Explicit, detailed notes going from point A to point B on the stuff I've been working on.
Even that scaffolding isn't supporting me right now.
I wouldn't give up a DROP of this 'kid time' for anything in the world. They're growing up so fast - I have only four "for sure" years left with my oldest boy. I gave up a lot of my fandom and online "junk" so I could have more time with the kids and less time away from addictive online time-wasters.
But sometimes, I really miss just living in another character's being for a little while.
Ah, well. This too shall pass.