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Hey. Hey guys. I have a date. Yeah, I know. I'm stupid excited/scared/nervous/omgeveryemotionever. He's meeting me at Faire on the 18th.
Talking to him makes me feel like a girl. I know that sounds stupid, but after a year of cancer and amputation and all of that, it's pretty awesome to feel like a normal girl over something. I mean, before cancer if a guy kept looking at me I assumed it's because he thought I was at least somewhat attractive. During cancer, I kept getting all these pitying looks so I just assumed everyone who stared at me was really just staring. I haven't felt attractive for about a year. And my self esteem wasn't the greatest before that.
But yeah. A date. Me. On one. Whoa.
I'm going to go have a heart attack now.
Talking to him makes me feel like a girl. I know that sounds stupid, but after a year of cancer and amputation and all of that, it's pretty awesome to feel like a normal girl over something. I mean, before cancer if a guy kept looking at me I assumed it's because he thought I was at least somewhat attractive. During cancer, I kept getting all these pitying looks so I just assumed everyone who stared at me was really just staring. I haven't felt attractive for about a year. And my self esteem wasn't the greatest before that.
But yeah. A date. Me. On one. Whoa.
I'm going to go have a heart attack now.