2010 Outlook-ish
I feel like my life is a waste.
I'm not really going anywhere, because all of my energy goes to trying to help the people I care about. Seriously, I get a moment to myself where I don't have to worry about someone or do something for someone, so I turn on a video game... and find I am literally unable to play because I'm too tired.
Honestly, I wouldn't care much, but then it seems like I can't get the same sort of treatment for myself, not even in small doses. I dunno, I give a whole lot of myself and don't get much of what I really want in return. I try to do what's asked of me, even when I'm tired, even when I don't like it. Sometimes, all I even ask is for my opinions to be respected and a bit of openness to them. Is that really so much, Mom?
Maybe I should just stop being so nice. No, that wouldn't work, because then I just end up with a bunch of sad faces staring at me for being so cruel and mean. I'm apparently not even all that much of a help, for all my effort, so the boycott method does absolutely nothing but make everyone think I'm a selfish prick. Heck, maybe they'd have a point...
...Or maybe a suicide attempt. That always seems to get everyone's attention. >____>
Preemptive Edit: For the record, that was sarcasm. I have absolutely zero respect/compassion for suicidal cases. Especially if they went through with it and survived. "Hey everybody, looks like I'm gonna be A-OK! Now I get to bask in all the gifts and affection I just wrung out of you! 8D" Sickening. I realize people may be sensitive to this subject, but those are my thoughts on the matter.