Private Post [Drunkenly left unwarded]
I don't understand it. Why can't people seem to accept that I'm still friends with Pansy? Why do they think that they can talk me out of seeing her? And they keep trying to tell me she's mean, and I know she can be mean, but she's not mean to me, and it hurts that they can't seem to accept my friendship with her. I don't ask Susan not to see Seamus. I don't ask anyone not to see anyone, so why do people try and ask the same of me?
And then I keep thinking about the what could have beens. What if I had asked Susan to marry me when I had planned to. Would she have said yes? Would I have cheated on her that oncewith Pansy? Would I be happy with her? And what if I had asked Pansy to marry me? Would it have ever worked? Could we have ever been happy? What if Dean hadn't died? What if my mum hadn't died? What if...
Damn, I need to stop thinking all these what ifs. They don't solve anything. I wonder if I can get one of the house elves to bring me some more rum.
And then I keep thinking about the what could have beens. What if I had asked Susan to marry me when I had planned to. Would she have said yes? Would I have cheated on her that oncewith Pansy? Would I be happy with her? And what if I had asked Pansy to marry me? Would it have ever worked? Could we have ever been happy? What if Dean hadn't died? What if my mum hadn't died? What if...
Damn, I need to stop thinking all these what ifs. They don't solve anything. I wonder if I can get one of the house elves to bring me some more rum.