I say dornit.
It's really frustrating when I work really hard and I am always broke. Daniel finally got a job. I am so happy for him and for us. We won't have to be borrowing money all the time. We can start to pay back people we borrowed from. We can make more than just the minimum payments on things. It's a good thing. I am glad. I'm frustrated that I can't just go out and buy toilet paper or household essentials because I don't have any money. That will change soon, thank goodness.
I had my first period since my IUD came out. It's been a long one. I thought it would never end. I think it finally gave up though, lol. Now I am less worried about the "what ifs" of getting pregnant. If we try to get pregnant the only big difference from now and last time physiologically is I have more weight on me now than I did then. Hopefully, it won't hinder our chances too much. I am super excited about having another child. Aside from financially, my life is more stable than it has been in a long time. When I was pregnant with Nora I was distraught 97% of the time. Instead of feeling ashamed and being criticized I can be happy this time when it happens. I can talk about it. Daniel said his mom will probably act like a douche but I don't really give a shit. She has done some shady things to him just since I have been with him so I don't think I will value her opinion as much as my own mom. I want a child, Daniel wants a child, and we are fully capable of raising one, so what is wrong with us getting pregnant? We'll see how it all works out.
I am listening to Daniel sing a song that he once told me reminded him of me. This was back when we had hung out for maybe a week and he was a little intoxicated and slipped and told me he thought he loved me. Back then I was like OH MY. WHAT IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE>? FEELINGS?? WHAT>?@# But then I came to terms that I had feelings for Daniel even though at first I didn't want to because I was trying to be a slutty mcslutpants. Look how things turned out. I can't see myself without him. He is amazing. Nora wasn't a huge fan of him tonight because he took shower gel that she was dumping into that bathtub away from her, but whatevz. Well, I am super tired and I've been awake forever so I gotta go. But I just wanted to rant about being tired of being poor and how I love Daniel. KBYE.
I had my first period since my IUD came out. It's been a long one. I thought it would never end. I think it finally gave up though, lol. Now I am less worried about the "what ifs" of getting pregnant. If we try to get pregnant the only big difference from now and last time physiologically is I have more weight on me now than I did then. Hopefully, it won't hinder our chances too much. I am super excited about having another child. Aside from financially, my life is more stable than it has been in a long time. When I was pregnant with Nora I was distraught 97% of the time. Instead of feeling ashamed and being criticized I can be happy this time when it happens. I can talk about it. Daniel said his mom will probably act like a douche but I don't really give a shit. She has done some shady things to him just since I have been with him so I don't think I will value her opinion as much as my own mom. I want a child, Daniel wants a child, and we are fully capable of raising one, so what is wrong with us getting pregnant? We'll see how it all works out.
I am listening to Daniel sing a song that he once told me reminded him of me. This was back when we had hung out for maybe a week and he was a little intoxicated and slipped and told me he thought he loved me. Back then I was like OH MY. WHAT IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE>? FEELINGS?? WHAT>?@# But then I came to terms that I had feelings for Daniel even though at first I didn't want to because I was trying to be a slutty mcslutpants. Look how things turned out. I can't see myself without him. He is amazing. Nora wasn't a huge fan of him tonight because he took shower gel that she was dumping into that bathtub away from her, but whatevz. Well, I am super tired and I've been awake forever so I gotta go. But I just wanted to rant about being tired of being poor and how I love Daniel. KBYE.