My How You've Grown

Aug 16, 2010 00:18





When I last posted I knew that I was planning to take a break from all of my internet posting. I wanted to go "off the grid" while I was in massage school but I still kept up with my Facebook and Livejournal accounts in order to keep up with my friends, but I chose not to comment much as I wanted to remove myself from the internet as much as possible. Here I am, eight and a half months later and I wish that I'd made an effort to post during my time at school. Hindsight is 20/20 and I guess I understand the whole idea of "posterity" now.

I am now in the position of not knowing how to explain where I've been for the last 8 months because saying that I was in massage school just doesn't cut it. Going to Florida School of Massage was the most amazing thing that has happened to me second only to my marriage to Steve. It was so much more than technique, anatomy and kineseology... I found a family there, I found my heart, I found my spirit. I learned about how our bodies and minds work. I think I'm lucky enough to have also had glimpses of how our souls work. It was like six months of group therapy and of learning how to connect with people on a deeper level than I ever knew I could. I learned about the magic of life and love and it was, without a doubt, the closest I will ever come to getting the owl that holds my letter for Hogwarts. Instead, we had peacocks that waited for us to open the doors on cool spring days and strutted about while we ate our lunches out on picnic tables on the lawn.





We spent our days in bare feet, sitting in circles on the floor, we wore feathers in our hair and learned how to make magic and how to create a safe place for people to heal themselves... I am so thankful for the friendships that were forged in my time there. I feel as though my most painful wounds have been healed. I feel that I have finally truly been known.

I have walked away from this experience as my authentic self. I am proud of who I am and I am thankful the support that I had from Steve and the rest of my family. I could not have done this without the support that they so freely gave. I could not be who i am without them.

So, here i am. So many layers peeled away... walls I've put up to protect myself, fear, anger and grief. I'm by no means at the end of the journey, but I can say that these last six months have certainly put me on my path.



Sorry if you see this twice. I've posted it to wearingskirts.com as well
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